you [likely don't] know who you are
don't tempt me.
you just keep doing it.
although i'm sure you don't mean to.
why can't i convince myself that i'm doing this for myself??? i really thought i was tonight, until i saw you. then i felt disappointed in myself and tried harder. i couldn't decide which was better for me... i mean, i was doing something that was good for myself... but i was doing it to impress you... and i know it doesn't. it's something i should do, so i'm not going to stop... i just... have to start caring more about myself and less about you. yeah... that sounds simple enough... right.
i don't really know what's wrong with me. not to say i haven't been having a good time at RA training, but I've definitely not been enjoying myself as much as i could. it's like i'm afraid of the people i want to spend time with and get to know, so i gravitate towards those with whom i don't really care to spend as much time. i just feel awkward. i don't know how to start conversation. but i guess that's nothing new for me...
you just keep doing it.
although i'm sure you don't mean to.
why can't i convince myself that i'm doing this for myself??? i really thought i was tonight, until i saw you. then i felt disappointed in myself and tried harder. i couldn't decide which was better for me... i mean, i was doing something that was good for myself... but i was doing it to impress you... and i know it doesn't. it's something i should do, so i'm not going to stop... i just... have to start caring more about myself and less about you. yeah... that sounds simple enough... right.
i don't really know what's wrong with me. not to say i haven't been having a good time at RA training, but I've definitely not been enjoying myself as much as i could. it's like i'm afraid of the people i want to spend time with and get to know, so i gravitate towards those with whom i don't really care to spend as much time. i just feel awkward. i don't know how to start conversation. but i guess that's nothing new for me...