hello again world
So the internet is bizarre and besides connecting with a few old friends, i have this sinking fear that most of my old friends hate me anyway for the most part. well hate is a starong word, i'm sure everyone is just busy living, life is hard but surfing the net comign across old faces there are people i'd really love to connect with.but again, it's just a lot of work.these days i think in italian and write a lot and paint when i have time and meet random boys as of late who get way too attached to me. seeing manda and casner this summer was really nice.
my space is the wave of the future, but ofcourse i'm still healing from myspace drama. that fucking *boy, i'll never understand him, but it seems as tho anger is subsiding he deleted that entry he wrote which made me feel a lot better. no reason is should take the blame for something that isn't completely my fault. i mean i've said it a lot lately but really folks it takes two to tango.
i stopped being afraid to get older when i turned 20, but now 21 is coming and i am crankier by the day and i am so afraid to lose that child like spirit that keeps me going. i meditate a lot these days to counteract anxiety and the feeling of being overwhelmed, it helps tremendously. i miss my summer's end friends like fucking hell and some of them are up here but i am way too apathetic about this whole lj thing to keep up.
i need to go to new england before it gets too cold.
cant wait until staff meetings.
all of my best friends are scattered through out the US right now except for a few, and they are having shit loads of fun. and here i am grounded in nyc, doing school work and stealing and hour to myself so as not to feel so isolated.
i met a new boy but honestly he's started to freak me out. if you know me, you know by now that i take a minute to warm up to people and then i'm like a raging fire, warm and crazy.
he kept texting me until i told him it cost me too much and then he finally stopped. i dont know.
honestly i need my space right now, but i also need to get laid and to just feel close to people in general.
i think i'm getting a fuckin sore throat which is lame.
anyways i want to give a shout out to my home girl denise.
what up denise?
ciao to those that still follow this shit.
my space is the wave of the future, but ofcourse i'm still healing from myspace drama. that fucking *boy, i'll never understand him, but it seems as tho anger is subsiding he deleted that entry he wrote which made me feel a lot better. no reason is should take the blame for something that isn't completely my fault. i mean i've said it a lot lately but really folks it takes two to tango.
i stopped being afraid to get older when i turned 20, but now 21 is coming and i am crankier by the day and i am so afraid to lose that child like spirit that keeps me going. i meditate a lot these days to counteract anxiety and the feeling of being overwhelmed, it helps tremendously. i miss my summer's end friends like fucking hell and some of them are up here but i am way too apathetic about this whole lj thing to keep up.
i need to go to new england before it gets too cold.
cant wait until staff meetings.
all of my best friends are scattered through out the US right now except for a few, and they are having shit loads of fun. and here i am grounded in nyc, doing school work and stealing and hour to myself so as not to feel so isolated.
i met a new boy but honestly he's started to freak me out. if you know me, you know by now that i take a minute to warm up to people and then i'm like a raging fire, warm and crazy.
he kept texting me until i told him it cost me too much and then he finally stopped. i dont know.
honestly i need my space right now, but i also need to get laid and to just feel close to people in general.
i think i'm getting a fuckin sore throat which is lame.
anyways i want to give a shout out to my home girl denise.
what up denise?
ciao to those that still follow this shit.