"The only bad part of any of my dreams is the waking up..."
The past few days have been an awkward dissapointment.
It's hard to explain, really...
Friday, I'd anticipated me and mum going christmas tree hunting, only to find out that was Saturday night.
Too late to re-make my plans with Sarah K., I stayed home all night, mostly waiting for Madeline to call.
Then I fell asleep, so when she did call, she wouldn't talk because she said I needed to just sleep.
>_<; stupid me, I wish I could've stayed up long enough.
So today, Saturday, Mum and me go to Ihop in the morning and eat. The day starts out great. Then it's off to do some errands, stop by the bank where she transfers my 80 dollars a month allowance to my checkings account, and then to somewhere else, and so on.
Then to her school, where we get a good bit of work done, and I get to watch MythBusters, Dirty Jobs, and Cash Cab.
XD
Things kinda went downhill from there.
We left a little late, and mom hadn't finished everything she'd wanted to. She was starting to get stressed because on top of all that, her plans for the day had changed at least 5 times up to then because of Sarah.
So then we drive all the way out a hella ways away to pick up Ben.
Then we go to Sarah's house to get Max, only to find out she's decided she can handle him until he gets picked up...
So mum's stresses are still piling up (I didn't even mention the closed bank, traffic jam, and almost-crash in the parking lot...).
So we go by Aunt Susan's where she gives her money she owes her, then me, mum, and Ben come home.
Ben does his usual bit, complaining and bitching about more than needs to be, trying his damnedest to make mum feel like shit for nothing.
Then we all three leave for Carabba's for Sarah's birthday dinner. By this point, mum has definitely let the little stresses of the day get to her, so I'm trying to be extra nice.
We get to Carabba's and meet up with Sarah and Max.
No offense to Max, I love him, but I wasn't in the best of moods, so dealing with his constant bratty selfish manner and crying over absolutely nothing wasn't top on my list.
Especially when half-way through the dinner, everybody stopped paying attention to him but me, so I had to keep him from throwing shit onto the table, dropping his "binky" onto the concrete, crying really loud, and breaking plates on the glass table.
Oh, and he's apparently a very picky eater...
So anyways, while we're eating, Sarah and Ben start arguing with mom over something, as usual.
They're all getting angry and whatnot, and pissing her off, then Ben said something or other that struck a sour note with mom, and she got very serious and told them something. (I didn't get much, what with Max trying to break every plate within reach...).
Anyways, mum's really pissed, and goes quiet, and then Sarah is trying to "clarify what Ben meant" and Ben is being a dick and fueling the fire saying how he's just telling the truth. Then, they decide to lecture mom on always "stressing the little things" and how she needs to not get so worked up over nothing and chill out...
Meanwhile I'm just thinking "Shut the fuck up! You'd do a better job of cheering her up if you just did that...".
I dunno.
So I had to pep-talk my mom on the way home, and convince her that they really do love her. And honestly, she doesn't get nearly enough gratitude. For all the things she did for the both of them today alone, she just got yelled at and told how to live her life. I dunno.
She forgot about us going to pick out a tree...
I let it slide because of her day, but honestly, it makes me really sad.
We haven't had a real tree in years, and tonight we were going to pick one out, me, mum, Sarah, and maybe even Ben...
And considering I'll be spending christmas with Betsy (yay!!!) and most of the after-time, I thought that might give me the feel of christmas with the rest of them before I leave.
Too bad Sarah's too busy venting her endless PMS, and Ben's too busy critisizing anything and everything, and mum's too busy doing too much and getting too little, and Betsy's all the way at the other corner of the Continental U.S. ( :[ )
P.S. Betsy, when/if you read this, don't go telling Ben, Sarah, or mum all the stuff I said about them. This entry is more of a vent, or rant. I just needed to say it without them hearing it, ya know?
Anyways, peace.
It's hard to explain, really...
Friday, I'd anticipated me and mum going christmas tree hunting, only to find out that was Saturday night.
Too late to re-make my plans with Sarah K., I stayed home all night, mostly waiting for Madeline to call.
Then I fell asleep, so when she did call, she wouldn't talk because she said I needed to just sleep.
>_<; stupid me, I wish I could've stayed up long enough.
So today, Saturday, Mum and me go to Ihop in the morning and eat. The day starts out great. Then it's off to do some errands, stop by the bank where she transfers my 80 dollars a month allowance to my checkings account, and then to somewhere else, and so on.
Then to her school, where we get a good bit of work done, and I get to watch MythBusters, Dirty Jobs, and Cash Cab.
XD
Things kinda went downhill from there.
We left a little late, and mom hadn't finished everything she'd wanted to. She was starting to get stressed because on top of all that, her plans for the day had changed at least 5 times up to then because of Sarah.
So then we drive all the way out a hella ways away to pick up Ben.
Then we go to Sarah's house to get Max, only to find out she's decided she can handle him until he gets picked up...
So mum's stresses are still piling up (I didn't even mention the closed bank, traffic jam, and almost-crash in the parking lot...).
So we go by Aunt Susan's where she gives her money she owes her, then me, mum, and Ben come home.
Ben does his usual bit, complaining and bitching about more than needs to be, trying his damnedest to make mum feel like shit for nothing.
Then we all three leave for Carabba's for Sarah's birthday dinner. By this point, mum has definitely let the little stresses of the day get to her, so I'm trying to be extra nice.
We get to Carabba's and meet up with Sarah and Max.
No offense to Max, I love him, but I wasn't in the best of moods, so dealing with his constant bratty selfish manner and crying over absolutely nothing wasn't top on my list.
Especially when half-way through the dinner, everybody stopped paying attention to him but me, so I had to keep him from throwing shit onto the table, dropping his "binky" onto the concrete, crying really loud, and breaking plates on the glass table.
Oh, and he's apparently a very picky eater...
So anyways, while we're eating, Sarah and Ben start arguing with mom over something, as usual.
They're all getting angry and whatnot, and pissing her off, then Ben said something or other that struck a sour note with mom, and she got very serious and told them something. (I didn't get much, what with Max trying to break every plate within reach...).
Anyways, mum's really pissed, and goes quiet, and then Sarah is trying to "clarify what Ben meant" and Ben is being a dick and fueling the fire saying how he's just telling the truth. Then, they decide to lecture mom on always "stressing the little things" and how she needs to not get so worked up over nothing and chill out...
Meanwhile I'm just thinking "Shut the fuck up! You'd do a better job of cheering her up if you just did that...".
I dunno.
So I had to pep-talk my mom on the way home, and convince her that they really do love her. And honestly, she doesn't get nearly enough gratitude. For all the things she did for the both of them today alone, she just got yelled at and told how to live her life. I dunno.
She forgot about us going to pick out a tree...
I let it slide because of her day, but honestly, it makes me really sad.
We haven't had a real tree in years, and tonight we were going to pick one out, me, mum, Sarah, and maybe even Ben...
And considering I'll be spending christmas with Betsy (yay!!!) and most of the after-time, I thought that might give me the feel of christmas with the rest of them before I leave.
Too bad Sarah's too busy venting her endless PMS, and Ben's too busy critisizing anything and everything, and mum's too busy doing too much and getting too little, and Betsy's all the way at the other corner of the Continental U.S. ( :[ )
P.S. Betsy, when/if you read this, don't go telling Ben, Sarah, or mum all the stuff I said about them. This entry is more of a vent, or rant. I just needed to say it without them hearing it, ya know?
Anyways, peace.