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Man.. it's happened again.. I got my heart handed back to me in tiny little pieces AGAIN. I got to talking to one of my old friends I lost contact with who seemed like she really liked me a while back and she was so glad to see me again but when I approached her about a relationship, she said that there has just been too much time pass since we last met and that she already has eyes for someone else. It's miserably unfair.. why is it everytmie I actually begin to believe in myself.. something always pulls the rug out from under my feet making me fall face first to the ground T____T I'm crushed once more... so.. having said that.. I leave you now as I listen to one of the saddest songs I've heard in months..

Wish I was too dead to cry my self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther but once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care if indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest so you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying one good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther but once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived a zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther but once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother; I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther but once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit