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ahhh today at work was long and crazy but i loved it...i miss being in control of things...lately ive just let things happen and went with the flow. and im so ready to take control of my life and do something and take charge...be happy because i can be and hang out with who i want to and do what i want to and not what everyone wants to or what will be the best for everyone else...thats what i love about being a manager too bc im in charge i make the descions. its great. also, i thought about it today and im totally ready for something real in my life..in my heart. im so ready to fall in love as funny as that sounds. ive matured and conquered a lot in my life ( well my past ) and im who i am now and i like that and i can stand for who i am and ive gotten over alot of shit in my life and im so ready to hand out my heart to someone well not anyone..im kinda a picky girl lol but im def ready to find mr right mr prince charming. where are u?! come to me bc im ready now and ive never been before...blah no one prolly understands how i feel. i feel great and dont get me wrong theres bad shit going on in my life and in my head and in my heart but its all otay its the small stuff and i can get over it bc happiness is so much more important.
oh yeah i read jonu's journal today and im so happi for u... ive been hoping and praying for u to break those walls down for so long. and im sorry that we've had our problems in the past but ur an amazing person with a great heart and ur going to do great things in ur life i kno u are and will. and ill be there every step of the way and just as funni as it sounds congrats i kno how u feel..liberated but kinda uneasy or scared but great at the same time. i lov ya bro in that we're going to be friends for the rest of our lives kinda way :)long distance hug and i kno sometimes are going to be hard and i kno that u deserve greatness but ill be there when u think youre going to fall to help u up again but most of all ill be there to celebrate the good times and yes yes u are a nerd hahha u kno u are...
welp im off to go paint again and then prolly hang out a bit with matt and that crew.....:) toooootles <3 dee
oh yeah i read jonu's journal today and im so happi for u... ive been hoping and praying for u to break those walls down for so long. and im sorry that we've had our problems in the past but ur an amazing person with a great heart and ur going to do great things in ur life i kno u are and will. and ill be there every step of the way and just as funni as it sounds congrats i kno how u feel..liberated but kinda uneasy or scared but great at the same time. i lov ya bro in that we're going to be friends for the rest of our lives kinda way :)long distance hug and i kno sometimes are going to be hard and i kno that u deserve greatness but ill be there when u think youre going to fall to help u up again but most of all ill be there to celebrate the good times and yes yes u are a nerd hahha u kno u are...
welp im off to go paint again and then prolly hang out a bit with matt and that crew.....:) toooootles <3 dee