guh.
i just got off the phone with jen and cam texted me like 2 seconds later. this weekend he went home to visit his family and i always get ignored when that happens but im so frustrated with him.
i asked him what he was doing for his lunch break on monday and he said nothing and he wasn't gonna eat because he's too broke. so i made us pb&j's and drove up to san luis and sat with him on his lunch break.
THEN wednesday he got off of work and was going to come over and i was going to cook dinner and we were going to watch a movie. then it turned in to "im tired, go get us a movie and taco bell." so i did because im me. we ate dinner and then went to larrys room to watch the movie on the gigantic tv. we hooked up and then started watching the movie and i was so comfy and snuggled up with him and like 20 minutes in his phone rings.
its his friend mike that makes me weak in the knees when i look at him so i can't hang out around him because i act like an idiot. haha. cameron didn't have any weed and mike wanted to smoke so cam told mike to come over. i just got up and grabbed my shit. he was like "don't be mad" i didn't really want to be too mad about it because its not that big of a deal. when i was leaving i was like "you don't even realize how lucky you are." and he gave me this look and was like, "i do." and smiled. its shit like that that pulls me back in.
so i got faded and proceeded to send him a couple of text messages that dropped the "girlfriend" bomb way too many times. not like, i want to be your girlfriend. just like, "i like being a gf and im a good gf and im not crazy. i know im not your gf." so yea. that sucked the next day when i read what i had written. but i am the best girlfriend ever with out having the official "title."
so he went home on friday, i went out with some friends, nothing too memorable and i texted him yesterday and it was just like one word answers. thinking about all the shit i do for him, i started to get really pissed off. and i decided i wasn't going to do anything. im not gonna text him or call him or anything. he knows my number. so i figured it would be a couple of days. but of course, cam being cam, can't let me be pissed off. he just texted me and asked me to come over and watch the lakers game. i told him i was going out to the dunes to ride quads with some friends and now he wants to hang out later.
its so frustrating. its impossible to ignore him because he always gives me like a day and then its like, "hi! im back! come be way too awesome for me so i can not appreciate you!"
HAHA my mom just came in to my room and was like "would it be better to go to india or czechoslovakia for my 60th birthday?" and i said india and she was just like "ok" and walked away. so fucking random.
oh yeah. and he's 3/4 czech. that means if you put us together we're 1 full czech. what are the odds? and our kids would be 50% like my mom and her brothers and we could keep it going. haha. and he has tattoos. i discover new ones every time i see him. its like a scavenger hunt. kinda fun.
thats all for me.
i asked him what he was doing for his lunch break on monday and he said nothing and he wasn't gonna eat because he's too broke. so i made us pb&j's and drove up to san luis and sat with him on his lunch break.
THEN wednesday he got off of work and was going to come over and i was going to cook dinner and we were going to watch a movie. then it turned in to "im tired, go get us a movie and taco bell." so i did because im me. we ate dinner and then went to larrys room to watch the movie on the gigantic tv. we hooked up and then started watching the movie and i was so comfy and snuggled up with him and like 20 minutes in his phone rings.
its his friend mike that makes me weak in the knees when i look at him so i can't hang out around him because i act like an idiot. haha. cameron didn't have any weed and mike wanted to smoke so cam told mike to come over. i just got up and grabbed my shit. he was like "don't be mad" i didn't really want to be too mad about it because its not that big of a deal. when i was leaving i was like "you don't even realize how lucky you are." and he gave me this look and was like, "i do." and smiled. its shit like that that pulls me back in.
so i got faded and proceeded to send him a couple of text messages that dropped the "girlfriend" bomb way too many times. not like, i want to be your girlfriend. just like, "i like being a gf and im a good gf and im not crazy. i know im not your gf." so yea. that sucked the next day when i read what i had written. but i am the best girlfriend ever with out having the official "title."
so he went home on friday, i went out with some friends, nothing too memorable and i texted him yesterday and it was just like one word answers. thinking about all the shit i do for him, i started to get really pissed off. and i decided i wasn't going to do anything. im not gonna text him or call him or anything. he knows my number. so i figured it would be a couple of days. but of course, cam being cam, can't let me be pissed off. he just texted me and asked me to come over and watch the lakers game. i told him i was going out to the dunes to ride quads with some friends and now he wants to hang out later.
its so frustrating. its impossible to ignore him because he always gives me like a day and then its like, "hi! im back! come be way too awesome for me so i can not appreciate you!"
HAHA my mom just came in to my room and was like "would it be better to go to india or czechoslovakia for my 60th birthday?" and i said india and she was just like "ok" and walked away. so fucking random.
oh yeah. and he's 3/4 czech. that means if you put us together we're 1 full czech. what are the odds? and our kids would be 50% like my mom and her brothers and we could keep it going. haha. and he has tattoos. i discover new ones every time i see him. its like a scavenger hunt. kinda fun.
thats all for me.