BREAKING NEWS!
the official re-launch of liz's livejournal will commense in 5.. 4.. 3.. 2..now. oh. and ALSO! HER MYSPACE HAS BEEN RE-OPENED TO THE PUBLIC. don't miss this once in a life-time opportunity. hahahaha.
so i decided that i would revive my livejournal because i have so much shit to say and nowhere to say it.
whats new? well. im hopefully going back to school in fall '08. but on my own dime this time. for the last 5 years ive felt my dads hands around my neck constantly and it finally got too tight.
i moved back in with my mom to save money. its been... so......... fun. we said we would be room mates. act as room mates. none of the mommy shit. haha that worked. for the first 3 days. ok. so try to imagine you have a boy over and the next morning he's doing the walk of shame out and he runs in to your room mate while she's making breakfast in her "nighty" (a t-shirt). awkward, right? imagine if that room mate was your mom. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
but its helping with the bills so i guess it works. plus the current boy in my life lives with his cousin who is the coolest guy ever. so it would be no issue. but it would be nice to actually hang out at my house, enjoy a movie on my nice new huge flat screen. oh well. their tv is literally the size of my bed. no joke. we measured. sickness.
lately ive been changing boys like my underwear. im just being fickle. my last relationship was a giant pile of shit so im allowed to be a little guarded. but one managed to brake through.
we met on superbowl sunday. which, by the way was the most amazing game in the history of earth. we were at a party and people were outside playing beer pong or in one of the rooms smoking weed, the usual. and the last 2 minutes came on and all of a sudden everyone was around the tv. it was awesome.
so anyway. i went to hang out with brittany. her friend larry knew of some parties in san luis so we met him at his house after, thank god, i went home and changed in to pants. and i met him and his cute cousin/new room mate cameron. we followed them up to san luis singing britney spears really loud. haha.
we went to the first place and the people were really chill but the house was small and pretty packed and outside it was raining and windy as fuck. so we went to this other one near laguna lake. so much fun.
it immediately starts pouring rain as soon as we pull up and me, being liz, can't fucking parallel park it.. i do it perfectly downtown with probably a .005% bac all the time.
anyway, larry and cam had gotten out of the car and larry made me get out of the car and parked it for me but right as i got out, it really started pouring. those clouds meant business. it was coming in at an angle so i used cameron as a shield. and that was pretty much how we met.
brittany and larry decided to be bitches and not get out of the car and left us standing there too. but we were so far from the house so we had to like run and half way to the house i realized i had an umbrella in my fucking car. genius. anyway.
later that night we went over to their house and hung out.
i was sort of interested in larry. which i have now figured out is because we're so much alike that we have chemistry, just not that kind of chemistry. then like a week later we went out to mongos on a saturday and got shit faced and i met this guy justin. brittany and him and his friends got in my car and we went to r&d's and drank more, then back to mongos where justin tried to kiss me right as i realized we were leaning on a car with people inside watching us. hahaha. but one of justin's moron friends almost got me a dui. i swerved right in front of a cop. i blew a .007 and was out.
i was texting larry and he had just gotten off work so we went over there. brittany and i layed in bed with him and watched tv. got THE funniest video of brittany trashed out of her mind rapping. the video had to be deleted from mine and larry's phones the next day because it was so HORRIBLE but so funny at the time.
the whole time we were at the compound justin and i were texting and he wanted to hang out. larry actually gave permission for someone to enter which shocked the hell out of me. i swear he thinks he's tony montana. but brittany was dry humping him when i asked. that could've affected it a little bit. haha. it was so awkward.
they've been friends for like 10 years and just friends. but thats how drunk she was so i took her home after a legendary visit to jack in the box. justin and i hung out the next night. my room was such a disaster and i was so embarassed. but yea. shit happened. and then a couple nights later i went over and had a smoke sesh with larry. cameron was home in santa barbara. we watched malibus most wanted.
then like the next night i went over and hung out with cam & adam and played dominoes and sequence. so i was basically becoming pretty good friends with both of them and getting comfortable.
cameron didn't talk much so i never really got a vibe from him. the other night he wanted some norcos so i told him i would come over and started the usual get-ready routine. apparently it wasn't fast enough. he kept texting me like, "where are you?" and "hurry up" and i was like "you know it takes some work to get to what you see" and he wrote back and was like, "lol alright beautiful." that threw me off so much. so when i got over there i was all uncomfortable. im pretty sure it was obvious. i didn't know where that came from. so we all hung out. they took their norcos and drank their 40s of mickeys and we played sequence but it was still weird. i got all stupid shy like i always do.
then they said their friend mike was coming over. mike walked in and he was one of the most gorgeous specimens i had ever seen.if no one noticed, they weren't paying attention because it was like immediate, i couldn't make eye contact, i squeaked out a "hi" and started texting and didn't look back. he was like "is that your black truck parked all exclusively out there?" because the have a big parking lot area but i always back up so im facing the driveway out and out of theirs and other cars' way. So that really didn't help the situation. I ended up going home like 10 minute after he got there.
a couple of days went by and i was running errands on monday. cam randomly texted me at like 12:30 and asked what i was doing. he knew i wasn't doing anything so he asked me to go have lunch with him at 1:30 on his lunchbreak from the only god damn department store in town, the glorious Gottschalks. of course i started the pretty routine, trying to minimize, but i ended up getting there at like 1:45. close enough. but he kept texting me like "hurry up" and i told him i was on my way and he wrote back and said "ok sexy" so by now my suspicions have been confirmed. we went to taco bell across the street. haha so romantic. but it was chill. i didn't eat. its impossible to look cute while eating at taco bell. but we talked a lot and it was really our first time like alone together. it was fun.
and i love seeing him during/after work because he works in the suit department so he always looks soooo hot. and you can see the tattoos on his neck and a little bit of the chest and wrists. so fucking hot. he has the same damn tattoo as my ex. except ej's was the pussy's version.
i went over to their house that night and hung out and on my way over i texted him "sexy? hah." and after i got there and was sitting watching them play sequence, i didn't even notice him do it but he wrote back "why sexy? hah?" and i left to get food because i was shaking so badly. and i wrote back and was like "me? sexy? haha" and he was like "what?" and i said "forget it" and he said ok! so i was like "no. don't forget it. end every text message with sexy." he laughed and agreed. i went home pretty early that night.
the next day i was like, im gonna be cool. i always get overly excited so if i haven't heard from him by friday, ill text him to see whats up. 11:30 he texted me. :D we talked all day and he was gonna come over after work. at like 3:30 he stopped answering my texts so i was like, wtf. do i get ready or just watch tv and be lazy? and i texted him a couple of times and at like 5 he was like "sorry my phone was on silent" and i asked if he was coming over or whatever and nothing-NOTHING.
so this morning i texted him thinking that maybe my need to know what was going on so i could get ready or whatever might have been like overbearing. i just told him sorry for taking my a.d.d. out on him last night and he wrote back and was like "whoa, calm down" like no worries. so now we're texting. hes working of course. maybe tonight his fucking crackberry will let us hang out.
i cant belive ive written this much about him. its really so early and its just fun to feel like this again. i realized a couple weeks ago that i have never had to make an effort in relationships. ej and i would call each other once we got lonely and get back together.. when i wasn't with ej it was brandon or canadian brandon grabbyhands or tim faggolden. then after ej it was nate, which was so easy. after nate it was a fling with chad where he really made all the moves. then jeremy which, wow. im not getting in to that but hes quite... persistent.
then elliott, who i knew for a year then when i told him i was moving he confessed that he had liked me since we met and he was too shy. which was the same exact thing for me. i brushed him off like, oh, he's not interested. so we had a month of really awesome sex then he moved to hollywood because he got a job writing for the ABC show Big Shots and wrote a scene in the first episode where one of the guys is with his mistress-bitch looked just like me, had the same type of underwear i had that he liked, and sent the guy a text message... verbatum one i sent to elliott. so over that.
So i've never really had to act like a kid and worry about what he thinks about what i text him or make sure i look cute at all times, that sort of stuff. never concentrated on one guy.
I just feel really good. its like the unknown is right in front of me and im about to figure everything out. i guess its just a waiting game. flip a coin and see how your life ends up. my initials give me the L and the V so all i need is the O and the E. L _ V _
so yea. how is everyone?
xLoIxZo