My Immortal; hide/Hyde; PG; yaoi
Title: My Immortal
Author: catsmeow2003
Chapter: One-shot
Word Count: 692 *PHAILS*
Prompt: This fic, by art_noveau; your presence still lingers here, And it won't leave me alone (My Immortal, by Evanescence)
Rating: PG? For implied malexmale?
Pairing: hide x Hyde
Warnings: Character death
Genre: angst, RP-based, AU
Synopsis: Memories, even good ones, can be hard to deal ( Read more... )
Author: catsmeow2003
Chapter: One-shot
Word Count: 692 *PHAILS*
Prompt: This fic, by art_noveau; your presence still lingers here, And it won't leave me alone (My Immortal, by Evanescence)
Rating: PG? For implied malexmale?
Pairing: hide x Hyde
Warnings: Character death
Genre: angst, RP-based, AU
Synopsis: Memories, even good ones, can be hard to deal ( Read more... )
I think this is beautiful. When we lose something, sometimes we just want to escape to a place where there's nothing that reminds us of our loss and at the same time, we're suckers for pain and when we catch just a HINT of that memory, we find ourselves inevitably stuck. This is a very real human situation and you described it very well - the feeling of being in limbo when dealing with a huge loss.
Because, you were right about me being “the girl”, and you were constantly comforting me or trying to drive away my fears and doubts and insecurities. Only now that you’re gone do I realize how very much simply letting you do those things for me helped you in return.
I like this part. Sometimes when being with someone, we feel we might be a tad too selfish and think that we're not doing enough for them in spite of their reassurances. But there are others who like to feel needed and letting them feel needed helps them in their own insecurities.
People say that when the one you love dies, they take a piece of you with them. I disagree with that. You didn’t take a piece of me with you. You took all of me.
The hardest part about losing someone you deeply care about is feeling like you've lost all of yourself especially when you DID give all of your heart to that person. I think that your Hyde would have been the type who, once you get past his emotional insecurities and reassure him, gives his all in a relationship. This is a testament to how much he loved hide and what hide was to him.
No, remembering isn’t hard. It’s the times that I forget.
This particular sentence broke my heart. Because it IS true. When we lose someone, it's like a constant struggle to remind ourselves that no, they're not physically with us anymore and we can easily get lost in the routines we shared with them and forget.
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Now, because I also promised that I'd be constructive... yes, I agree with you that this is short. :P It's not a bad thing, no. But I think, given your talent in writing, you could expound a little more on this piece. I'm not saying there should be dramatic flashback scenes and all but it would have been nice if there was more introspection from Hyde since he IS the type to brood. xD;; I felt this was cut short, but I realize that it's a songfic and songfics are...very difficult creatures. XD;;
And I will tell you to stop beating yourself up. You did a good job. Hell, I can't say I win at angst, especially not since I know there are people like you who can write good angst. =P
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When we lose something, sometimes we just want to escape to a place where there's nothing that reminds us of our loss and at the same time, we're suckers for pain and when we catch just a HINT of that memory, we find ourselves inevitably stuck.
That is EXACTLY what I was going for there. And, as we've discussed before, Hyde is very much the sort of person that would get lost in that conflict.
But there are others who like to feel needed and letting them feel needed helps them in their own insecurities.
So very true. I don' think Hyde realizes that, and wouldn't until it... wasn't there anymore. I don't think he'd realize until looking at it in retrospect that, as much as he needed hide and his reassurances and comfort, hide needed to feel needed. Much in the same way OUR relationship works.
The hardest part about losing someone you deeply care about is feeling like you've lost all of yourself especially when you DID give all of your heart to that person. I think that your Hyde would have been the type who, once you get past his emotional insecurities and reassure him, gives his all in a relationship. This is a testament to how much he loved hide and what hide was to him.
Again, exactly what I was going for. Hyde very much is that sort of person. He has his hang-ups and reservations and doubts, but once someone gets past all that and he lets himself love, he gives everything he has to that person. The way he sees it, when they met, he wasn't living, merely existing. Then along came hide and gently prodded him back into the Land of the Living. So in a very real sense, hide WAS his life. Sumire, too, of course, but yeah.
When we lose someone, it's like a constant struggle to remind ourselves that no, they're not physically with us anymore and we can easily get lost in the routines we shared with them and forget.
*nods* And Hyde is very much a creature of routines and habit. I can very easily picture him being in the middle of cooking something for him and Sumire, or watching something, and, out of habit, turning to say something to hide, and being all "oh... right... ;__;" And ironically, I wrote that part first. LOL Even funnier? The idea came from an episode of Fresh Prince of Bel Air. They touched on that on one of the episodes, and it stuck with me.
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LIES! ALL LIES! :P
Yeah, I'm not happy that it turned out so short. Part of the problem was it being a songfic, yeah. But I also ran into the same problem that hide has run up against a time or two already. Yes, Hyde is VERY MUCH the brooding type. But he's more the go-off-into-his-own-little-corner-and-quietly-brood sort, than the sort to rant and rail and ramble on and on. So, despite his hounding me to write this, once I started, he was all "you're on your own 8D". *pokes at him* Evil brat. Yeah, that's part of why I generally loathe songfics, in general. They never really feel... wrapped up right, yanno? It also kinda got cut short cuz I was... having a bit of difficulty typing.
And I know we agreed to disagree, but AGAIN WITH MOAR LIEZ! :P
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