I can get it back, but I don't want it back.
What do you say to jumping off the edge? Never knowing if there's solid ground below or hand to hold, or hell to pay. - Taking Chances.
We had no classes last Monday. So I spent half the day with him <3 and with his friends. I enjoyed their company, sobra, I laughed the whole time..
Another reason for me to be supposedly happy is that yesterday morning I got back to my class. Im with my classmates again. Not suspended anymore. I thought now that I was sent back to the 4th year, my life would be even better. But no, he had to act that way. Why can't my life be balanced? Like just for one time in my life everything's right. I totally dont understand whats up with him these days but Im gonna act like I do, cos.. bcos.. you know why.
I am so stressed. I wanna sleep and sleep and sleeeepp and not eat. I wish I had the guts to throw my phone away. I feel really bad and stupid, also a bit senseless. And yes, I feel so ugly. Am I.. I just can't smile here right now.
I haven't actually told anyone about this. Im too shy for them to know that I always feel bad about something from time to time. Like ayan nanaman, Im gonna make kwento nnamn about something not good. Haaaayyy. Kawawa.
And just Look at my *@$@# blog, the previous posts I was just really happy and then now I crash down like this. I think my life so funny. and it won't bother me right now if you laugh at it/me. My emotions fade away/change so quick and it sucks. But I like blogging when Im sad, it makes me feel a bit better... unexplainable reason why. and I know those who like writing know what I mean.
Thanks forr reading. xx
| edit | January 21 2010 | 12 27 pm
Hello. Am I on a roller coaster, cos I'm feeling fine already. I GUESS it's ok now. But Im still stupid for saying those stuffs and worrying about such things. I felt so bad yesterday.. but don't get me wrong, I still feel kinda sick today, physically. This is really funny. I should have thought about this really carefully before writing it down this wayy. But Thanks for those who left a comment. It's nice to know people still read my scrawls. ♥
We had no classes last Monday. So I spent half the day with him <3 and with his friends. I enjoyed their company, sobra, I laughed the whole time..
Another reason for me to be supposedly happy is that yesterday morning I got back to my class. Im with my classmates again. Not suspended anymore. I thought now that I was sent back to the 4th year, my life would be even better. But no, he had to act that way. Why can't my life be balanced? Like just for one time in my life everything's right. I totally dont understand whats up with him these days but Im gonna act like I do, cos.. bcos.. you know why.
I am so stressed. I wanna sleep and sleep and sleeeepp and not eat. I wish I had the guts to throw my phone away. I feel really bad and stupid, also a bit senseless. And yes, I feel so ugly. Am I.. I just can't smile here right now.
I haven't actually told anyone about this. Im too shy for them to know that I always feel bad about something from time to time. Like ayan nanaman, Im gonna make kwento nnamn about something not good. Haaaayyy. Kawawa.
And just Look at my *@$@# blog, the previous posts I was just really happy and then now I crash down like this. I think my life so funny. and it won't bother me right now if you laugh at it/me. My emotions fade away/change so quick and it sucks. But I like blogging when Im sad, it makes me feel a bit better... unexplainable reason why. and I know those who like writing know what I mean.
Thanks forr reading. xx
| edit | January 21 2010 | 12 27 pm
Hello. Am I on a roller coaster, cos I'm feeling fine already. I GUESS it's ok now. But Im still stupid for saying those stuffs and worrying about such things. I felt so bad yesterday.. but don't get me wrong, I still feel kinda sick today, physically. This is really funny. I should have thought about this really carefully before writing it down this wayy. But Thanks for those who left a comment. It's nice to know people still read my scrawls. ♥