Well, it happened
I finally did what was right for me, and I broke up with Eddie on December 19th ... I absolutely hate that it was so close to the holidays, but I guess some times you have to do what's best, and more than likely if I hadn't done it then, my holidays would have been miserable, or filled with worries and questions. I had told him that I didn't want it to be permanent, but after getting very few responses to my text messages, or making phone calls and being greeted with a "YEAH?" or "YO" OR "WHAT," proceded by one-word answers to my questions (Eddie isn't a one-word kinda guy ... very talkative, or at least used to be with me) ... I finally asked him if he just didn't want me to call or text him, and he answered with "do what you want, I don't really care." And if someone wants to keep in touch with you, they won't appear to be so damn indifferent about whether they ever hear from you again, so I decided that was the last straw.
Besides, at the time, I have all I need to take my mind off of everything that happened with him. If he can forget about everything so quickly and pretend I didn't mean shit to him at any point in time, why should I waste my time entertaining thoughts of him and what would have been? I shouldn't, and I won't. I can do better on my own. I'm finding my strength again, and it feels good. I don't need anyone that talks to me or treats me like that in my life ... especially someone who sees absolutely nothing wrong with the things he says or does. God Bless the girl who he falls in love with, if he ever does ... because she is going to be nothing short of a perfect miracle - either that, or a dumb ass pushover. Extremes, I know. I pray nothing ever goes wrong in their relationship, because when it does, he will treat her like a stranger, and never think twice about what they had. And on a side note, everyone from close friends, to my mom, dad and brother have told me to tell him to fuck off. Not the greatest sign of things to come, if I may say so myself.
I have other ways to occupy my time and to spend my energy, without going into detail :)
Besides, at the time, I have all I need to take my mind off of everything that happened with him. If he can forget about everything so quickly and pretend I didn't mean shit to him at any point in time, why should I waste my time entertaining thoughts of him and what would have been? I shouldn't, and I won't. I can do better on my own. I'm finding my strength again, and it feels good. I don't need anyone that talks to me or treats me like that in my life ... especially someone who sees absolutely nothing wrong with the things he says or does. God Bless the girl who he falls in love with, if he ever does ... because she is going to be nothing short of a perfect miracle - either that, or a dumb ass pushover. Extremes, I know. I pray nothing ever goes wrong in their relationship, because when it does, he will treat her like a stranger, and never think twice about what they had. And on a side note, everyone from close friends, to my mom, dad and brother have told me to tell him to fuck off. Not the greatest sign of things to come, if I may say so myself.
I have other ways to occupy my time and to spend my energy, without going into detail :)