Fall Break
I'm home, and it's so nice. I need to get away, even if it is coming back to good ol' Hendersonville for a few days. I rode up with this girl named Lauren, she's cool - good ol' country girl, but she IS from this area, I don't know why I would expect anything different haha ... she's sweet though.
As I was driving home it was just so nice to feel the sun on my face. It's been raining and cloudy in Greenville for the past two weeks or so, not to mention the chaos I've been going through with things lately, so even my life was drab in a sense. But it's going to be good being here, even though I'm just going to be working. Gonna try and work tomorrow night, Saturday and Sunday, and just chill and be with family and friends on Monday before I leave. I have a date with Casey on Monday too - yay :)
It's amazing ... you know you have good friends when you can be separated months at a time, rarely talk, but still pick right up where you left off. I'm so thankful for Casey and Amber, they are the best. As well as the people close to me at ECU, can't forget them. But you know ... passing thought.
So, a DAY LATER. Things with Eddie are ... things with Eddie again. I don't understand. He won't trust me for a while, and I'm going to have to stop wanting to know what he's doing every moment of every day and who he's talking to etc. It's going to have to work both ways, and I think we need to try. Some how I think we will get back to where we were, it just won't be instant, and I can't ask for instant. But I am content so far. I think we both learned and will take heed from what happened, and hopefully in the near future be able to put it behind us. Everyone makes mistakes, and we both made them because alas, we are both human - and human beings are not logical creatures some times. I just don't want anyone to harp on me because of my decision, I know what he did was wrong, and what I did was wrong, but like I said, I just pray that we both take something from what happened and realize it isn't/wasn't the right thing to do from any perspective and continue to practice that.
I am a declared double major in Criminal Justice and Psychology now, which I'm kinda excited about. It was actually relatively easy because I have taken so many psych classes since I've been in college that they just kinda rolled over into me getting credentials for them. Although, this does push my expected graduation date back until December '06, and the only thing that concerns me with that is where I'm going to live from August to December. I don't know many places in Gville that have 6month leases, but I have to figure out something. Hopefully if I really need to I will be able to stay in the KD House for that length of time. Honestly I don't know how well i will do with giving up my privacy because I've never lived in the dorms and I've had my own bed/bath since I've been in school, but I can't be too picky when I'm in desperate need of a roof over my head! Eh, but maybe I can sublease ... but then you get into the hassle of furniture and stuff. We'll play it by ear.
I am still interested in getting my doctorate in psychology, but I don't think that, with a 3.2 GPA I will be competitive enough to get into a program. So, my NEW advisor for psych (!) Dr. Handron suggested getting a Masters in Social Work. I can work independent, or for a practice, or a hospital, prison, school, pretty much anywhere, and I can combine my undergrad degree in anything. AND I'm REALLY excited about the prospect of NOT having to be in school for another 4 years - and so is my wallet.
I'm going to sleep well tonight. I have my family, and I have my Tonter (Tonka) *Boxers are the best dogs* and my Big Kitty - TODD - no comment. But they are the perfect animals. It's just so cute when he looks up at you and cocks his head a bit with his big brown eyes and smushed in face, it's the most adorable thing ever. And as my cat gets older he's much less bitchy, and more cuddly.
Kenny and I have been talking more recently. He's easier to call now that he's stationed in SC, instead of having to call the equivalent of 5 damn phone numbers when he was in italy. We have talked about getting together for lunch or something, but I doubt anything will come to fruition. I'm sad because he's going to Iraq in January, and it puts my stomach in knots. But he gives good, straight forward MAN advice aka no bullshit, and it's quite possible that I took for granted how easy he was to talk to and how simple it was to communicate with him while we were in a relationship. Ahhh, from the oustide looking in. But at any rate, he's doing well and to my surprise has only slept with 5 people since we've been split *ahemMANWHOREahem*. And if you happen to stumble upon this, DON'T LIE TO YOURSELF .. :)
I don't visit home much, and when I do, I'm pretty much just here for a purpose, to work/holiday/see fam and do my thing and leave. But I can actually say I'm glad to be home for this break, because it feels good to be loved, and that's what makes me happy. Let's just hope I make some good money at work while I'm here, I definitely need it, and I need to help my parents out too, so let's hear it for a productive weekend. I'm tired & off to bed it is.
The Friend/Boyfriend (because I don't know which at the present time) is off to Miami tomorrow at the buttcrack of dawn, he has to leave at like 4am to be there on time, and right now (1130pm) he's just gone to get his hair twisted, and LORDY does he have a thick head of hair, so he will be there for the next three hours. I feel bad for him because he will be running on no sleep. Anyway, I hope he has fun, and maybe even entertains a thought or two of me while he's there. I just can't help but wonder who else he wishes was with him. Time will tell how things are supposed to pan out I suppose ... I just hope I'm the one that's on his mind. I also hope the time apart does us well - we both need to be away from each other for a hot minute.
Goodness my entries are long. I should update more.
As I was driving home it was just so nice to feel the sun on my face. It's been raining and cloudy in Greenville for the past two weeks or so, not to mention the chaos I've been going through with things lately, so even my life was drab in a sense. But it's going to be good being here, even though I'm just going to be working. Gonna try and work tomorrow night, Saturday and Sunday, and just chill and be with family and friends on Monday before I leave. I have a date with Casey on Monday too - yay :)
It's amazing ... you know you have good friends when you can be separated months at a time, rarely talk, but still pick right up where you left off. I'm so thankful for Casey and Amber, they are the best. As well as the people close to me at ECU, can't forget them. But you know ... passing thought.
So, a DAY LATER. Things with Eddie are ... things with Eddie again. I don't understand. He won't trust me for a while, and I'm going to have to stop wanting to know what he's doing every moment of every day and who he's talking to etc. It's going to have to work both ways, and I think we need to try. Some how I think we will get back to where we were, it just won't be instant, and I can't ask for instant. But I am content so far. I think we both learned and will take heed from what happened, and hopefully in the near future be able to put it behind us. Everyone makes mistakes, and we both made them because alas, we are both human - and human beings are not logical creatures some times. I just don't want anyone to harp on me because of my decision, I know what he did was wrong, and what I did was wrong, but like I said, I just pray that we both take something from what happened and realize it isn't/wasn't the right thing to do from any perspective and continue to practice that.
I am a declared double major in Criminal Justice and Psychology now, which I'm kinda excited about. It was actually relatively easy because I have taken so many psych classes since I've been in college that they just kinda rolled over into me getting credentials for them. Although, this does push my expected graduation date back until December '06, and the only thing that concerns me with that is where I'm going to live from August to December. I don't know many places in Gville that have 6month leases, but I have to figure out something. Hopefully if I really need to I will be able to stay in the KD House for that length of time. Honestly I don't know how well i will do with giving up my privacy because I've never lived in the dorms and I've had my own bed/bath since I've been in school, but I can't be too picky when I'm in desperate need of a roof over my head! Eh, but maybe I can sublease ... but then you get into the hassle of furniture and stuff. We'll play it by ear.
I am still interested in getting my doctorate in psychology, but I don't think that, with a 3.2 GPA I will be competitive enough to get into a program. So, my NEW advisor for psych (!) Dr. Handron suggested getting a Masters in Social Work. I can work independent, or for a practice, or a hospital, prison, school, pretty much anywhere, and I can combine my undergrad degree in anything. AND I'm REALLY excited about the prospect of NOT having to be in school for another 4 years - and so is my wallet.
I'm going to sleep well tonight. I have my family, and I have my Tonter (Tonka) *Boxers are the best dogs* and my Big Kitty - TODD - no comment. But they are the perfect animals. It's just so cute when he looks up at you and cocks his head a bit with his big brown eyes and smushed in face, it's the most adorable thing ever. And as my cat gets older he's much less bitchy, and more cuddly.
Kenny and I have been talking more recently. He's easier to call now that he's stationed in SC, instead of having to call the equivalent of 5 damn phone numbers when he was in italy. We have talked about getting together for lunch or something, but I doubt anything will come to fruition. I'm sad because he's going to Iraq in January, and it puts my stomach in knots. But he gives good, straight forward MAN advice aka no bullshit, and it's quite possible that I took for granted how easy he was to talk to and how simple it was to communicate with him while we were in a relationship. Ahhh, from the oustide looking in. But at any rate, he's doing well and to my surprise has only slept with 5 people since we've been split *ahemMANWHOREahem*. And if you happen to stumble upon this, DON'T LIE TO YOURSELF .. :)
I don't visit home much, and when I do, I'm pretty much just here for a purpose, to work/holiday/see fam and do my thing and leave. But I can actually say I'm glad to be home for this break, because it feels good to be loved, and that's what makes me happy. Let's just hope I make some good money at work while I'm here, I definitely need it, and I need to help my parents out too, so let's hear it for a productive weekend. I'm tired & off to bed it is.
The Friend/Boyfriend (because I don't know which at the present time) is off to Miami tomorrow at the buttcrack of dawn, he has to leave at like 4am to be there on time, and right now (1130pm) he's just gone to get his hair twisted, and LORDY does he have a thick head of hair, so he will be there for the next three hours. I feel bad for him because he will be running on no sleep. Anyway, I hope he has fun, and maybe even entertains a thought or two of me while he's there. I just can't help but wonder who else he wishes was with him. Time will tell how things are supposed to pan out I suppose ... I just hope I'm the one that's on his mind. I also hope the time apart does us well - we both need to be away from each other for a hot minute.
Goodness my entries are long. I should update more.