afraid
It has been bothering me for a very long time. I think my biggest fear is my Trich returning full blast. I'm actually afraid of looking the way I use to. When I think about it I get sick to my stomach.
Recently it's been returning. It comes when i'm stressed, it creeps up in my sleep when I don't notice its there, it comes when I don't even think about it. I'm afraid, I really am. I don't even want to look into mirrors for fear of seeing what I don't want to see. And I know right now there are some noticeable signs, and It makes me so sad. I don't even want to go to school, see my friends, talk to my family..
I've fought it off before, I can do it again. It's just recently i've been so stressed out that I don't even know what to do with myself. Actually, i didn't know I was this stressed until I noticed my Trich coming back.I don't know what to do with myself.
Maybe I need to get away, leave home for a long time. Come back fresh and new. I'm upset about leaving all of my friends when I go to camp, but I hope that you all also realize that this is going to be so...healthy for me. I'm leaving all my stress here and "cleaning" out my system.
I'm afraid. I can't describe what It feels like...
I hate mirrors.
Recently it's been returning. It comes when i'm stressed, it creeps up in my sleep when I don't notice its there, it comes when I don't even think about it. I'm afraid, I really am. I don't even want to look into mirrors for fear of seeing what I don't want to see. And I know right now there are some noticeable signs, and It makes me so sad. I don't even want to go to school, see my friends, talk to my family..
I've fought it off before, I can do it again. It's just recently i've been so stressed out that I don't even know what to do with myself. Actually, i didn't know I was this stressed until I noticed my Trich coming back.I don't know what to do with myself.
Maybe I need to get away, leave home for a long time. Come back fresh and new. I'm upset about leaving all of my friends when I go to camp, but I hope that you all also realize that this is going to be so...healthy for me. I'm leaving all my stress here and "cleaning" out my system.
I'm afraid. I can't describe what It feels like...
I hate mirrors.