bored..alone
I find that tuesdays really suck when i have to spend the whole day without talking to mike. which is ok i guess, he's playing a game he really wants and i would never pull him away from doing what he likes. not to mention it doesn't hurt to spend some time away from him. so ya, no biggy. i just find it a little..well..lonely i guess. but it's ok cause angi is coming over soon so i can have some company. i guess i'm not one to be left alone..or should i say it's not a good idea to be left alone. i like being alone..but when i'm alone my mind tends to drift onto the ..... DARKER side of things. that's why it's always good to be around good company or just to keep busy. but these slow days of christmas break make it easy for my mind to wander. i wonder about alot of things...i still wonder if i'm going to live a happily ever after. my grades...and i guess..ME..emotionally. i wonder why i can so easily get depressed..but have to try twice as hard to be happy. i get mad SO easily, but then it takes twice as much work to let it go and be happy again. i guess that frustrates me. so i get FRUSTRATED about being...FRUSTRATED. make sense? i think so ..but that just means i'm twice as angry because i got mad twice?lol. i got mad UNDER being mad. it's really stupid. anywaz, i decided i'm going to switch everything over to a new username...start fresh. i'm actually going to basically transport just about everything from here to my other username an i will post PUBLICALLY my new sn and add almost every friend that i already have listed. so most of you will be automatically added. if you aren't..just comment. anywho, i'm going to find a new username for myself. wish me luck.bye.
-meg
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-meg
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