is it too late
i feel like it may be too late to be happy, to be me. i mean people are being so weird...not everyone, just some certain people who seem to have only liked me because I was dating Nic. Yeah and now that i am without him, it seems like everyone would rather talk to me as nic's girlfriend. SO, maybe it is better being someone else, than being me. I really wish that i had stayed with him sometimes, but i am sure that i will find happiness, but if i am not happy for a long time...then i might be crazy!! just kidding. well, i feel like if i dont get to be happy for just one week, then i am seriously going to attack someone.HAHA> no i am probably making everyone laugh. but i cant believe that i just let my life filter down the drain and now it has clogged and i cant do anything about it but get a new life. How do i do that? i mean how would someone go about getting a new life? do i build it up, do i grow it up from the ground, or do i just continue on and hope that the clog will release itself and i will find true happiness. I am a little tired so dont take all of this mumbo jumbo to heart. i cant quite figure out myself. i seem to be caught between so much stuff. I really dont know which way to go and when i finally thought that everything was going fine.....it really wasnt and then when i finally realized it, i lost it. and now i am stuck on being alone and by myself. maybe i have to go on this journey all alone because in the end i will come out a better person. so i will see everyone on the other side.
peaces and kisses
Jessie Lee
peaces and kisses
Jessie Lee