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today is a new day, i am only one person and i can only do so much. hopefully in time i will learn that things i want don't just come to me. i have to work for them and when i get them, i can rest easy. today is the first day of finals for my junior year. to recap everything you all have missed, i am in the 11th grade, i have a bf named nic, i have really hard classes, i have best friends, and i see this freshman that i like like everyday. let me explain about the freshman. his name is chance and i liked him when i was in 8th grade. we dated 3 times and then i forgot about him. he returned into my life a better looking guy and i have anxiously wanted to talk to him. you see why this information is so confidential is because i have a boyfriend and we have been going out for 4 months. seems like a long time but we were fighting through most of it. i love him to death i just don't know if i am lying to myself or if i really want to be with him. he is really sweet and nice, but he never lets me be the one at fault or i never ever get the blame. i am an independent person and i don't like having things done for me. i mean i want to be able to know that i can take care of myself with or without a man. i just don;t know how to tell nic that i feel this way. well on a different topic. i am having the worst time with this whole ebing a woman thing. yeah every girl knows what i am talking about but i doubt they know to what extent. well yeah i have midterms right now. i am in 1st period and it is going to last 2 hours. what will i do with myself. next period we are having pizza after the final and i cant wait. i am super hungry and i dont know, maybe the words in my head will come out soon or maybe during pizza....hahah. lol. i wuv yall and write as much as you possibly can. peace love and a big bowl of chocolate.
this is jessica signing off!