12 thousand dollars later
today i woke up and it was around 11:30 and so i went downstairs in my nighty and looked for something to eat. i grabbed the garage and mail keys and went outside. i first checked the mail and all there was were a Verizon bill for chae and a Sears bill. well i went in the garage and grabbed myself some bagel bites and took them inside. i popped them in the microwave and stuck the mail on the counter not thinking anything of either bill. as soon as my bagel bites were done i went upstairs and ate them on the floor while i watched the tele. when i was done i got up and as i was reaching for the door knob to let myself out, i heard my mom crying and talking on the phone. i walked downstairs carefully not to act like i was listening, but i was. i reached the trash can and i could hear my sis saying, " i don't feel sorry for anyone but me, you need to get a job mom we can't survive if you don't have a job". my mom is full out balling on the phone and i come to realize it was my dad on the phone and i can hear him yelling at her. i asked my sis what happened and she told me that mom had received a bill from sears that added up to 12 grand. you see after my dad broke his leg, for the first few weeks, we had no money coming in and so we didn't have a whole lot saved up. yes and my mom passed me and she screamed to my dad," peter(my dad's name).... peter, we owe sears like 12 thousand dollars"..... i was in utter disbelief. i felt low and i was scared that we were gonna lose everything. i am still scared that we are gonna lose everything. although my mom says it is her fault i feel responsible..... yeah and i wish that she would have not allowed me to buy things that i have bought..... somehow i feel like i ruined everything. my dad hasn't came home yet and i can see it all now. he will walk threw the door and he will yell up a storm and at some point my mom will either walk out of the house or my dad will crutch himself upstairs ( his cast is off but he can't walk right yet). something is going to happen and i am scared. i attempted to call 3 of my friends because i really need to talk but noone was home. i just need to talk to someone. i need comfort. i even almost called a boy that i "liked" because he was a good friend but then i realized he wouldn't want to talk to me... and no it wasn't nic i almost called,,, i don't even have his nimber. anyways and so that is where i am right now. afraid and unsure how the play i call life will turn out..........
forever yours~ a deep departed girl
forever yours~ a deep departed girl