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Just wanted to update on my situation with Gabe. First of all, he's an awesome guy...i can't say that i'm okay with him being gone because i feel like we were cheated of something that could've been so awesome, but i do know that its all in God's plan. I don't know if Gabe's the one for me, and i'm okay with not knowing...don't get me wrong, i would LOVE nothing more than to find the man that i'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with, but i know that i will when God wants me to...and who knows, i could've already met him, he could be in my life right now, i don't know...Gabe's a great guy, but i'm not gonna sit around and whine and be upset cause he's not here. If i do that, i could miss the man that i'm supposed to be with...i know i said that Gabe was the cutest and sweetest guy ever, and to be honest, he was at the time...i've never been treated that good in my life, he set the bar for ever other guy that i date..and no offense whatsoever towards matt...he's awesome and whoever ends up with him will be an EXTREMELY lucky girl...matt always treated me great, don't get me wrong, but we just weren't supposed to be together...i'm not gonna lie, i know i'm not gonna like any girl that he dates, just for the mere fact of what he and i shared, but as long as he's happy, i'm happy for him..just wanted to get that out...anyway, i guess what i'm trying to say about Gabe is that i have extremely strong feelings for him, but i think God's putting someone else in my life right now who is just as wonderful and i'm happy...anyway, i don't know if that's confusing, i'm sure it is...just wanted to explain what's going on and although i care about Gabe immensely, right now, i know we're not supposed to be together and i just had to share that realization and get it out of my system.