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Well, I just got off the phone with Jessica, the girl I let go a couple years ago that I regret everyday of my life since then. Let me give you a little background info on her. Jessica is 22 and a very attractive girl. She moved here with at the time was one of my best friends named Kevin. They were together for a couple years, but he treated her like shit. She would tell me all the time how bad he treated her and what he did ect. During this time, we grew very close and were great friends. They finally broke up and basically we hung out intill she decided she wanted to move back to St. Louis were she was originally from. If I had the balls I do now I would have asked her to stay here because I loved her with all my heart. Well I didn't, I told her to go and be happy in St. Louis. Well everyday since then, I've thought about what a fuckup I was and should have told her to stay here. Well I talk to her about once every 3 weeks. I hadn't talked to her recently in about a month and I tried calling her last night, because I missed her. I got in one of those depressed moods that I get in about once a month were I don't care about anything and think bad thoughts about everything. I was so depressed yesterday I was outside sitting down looking at the clouds almost about to cry. I'm just glad I got to hear from her, because I really just miss talking to her. She said she would call me Sunday, because her friend had just gotten to her house and she was going to hang out with her. I told her that was cool.
Wednesday work just fucking sucked. We just got our ass whoop all day long! YAY! Yesterday and today, I've been off and just trying to relax. I worked out yesterday twice and today once. I feel pretty good and I'm continuing to get in very good shape and I'm starting to tone up. Wednesday I also went and played some cards, and I didn't play well at all. It was pathetic. Today after I got done working out I went to the mall and bought some socks from Aeropostale and bought a necklace from Pac Sun. I love my socks, and I love my necklace. I personally think it looks badass. Then I came home and Erynn came over for a bit. She looked cute as hell but I wasn't digging the blue jean skirt, sorry Erynn :(. Well we chilled for a bit then she left and I had to clear things up with Matt D. because apparently he thought I said somethings to Erynn that I didn't. Well we cleared that up in a quick second. I tried to call Erynn earlier and she said she would call me back in a min which was at 8:45 and its now 11:15. Yea.....I txt'ed her what I wanted to tell her cause I didn't get to tell her at my house, but she hasn't responded. I don't think she is going to call me back ither, because she is probably drunk right about now. I just hope she is careful tonight thats all. I'm definitely going to miss her when she goes to Mexico. :(
I still haven't seen Dominic in a good month and I'm very anxious to see him and just chill with my best friend. Recently I've felt that friends had taken me for granted. Their is only 2 people in this world that don't take me for granted and thats Dominic and Jessica. Those 2 are the only ones who know what I'm really capable of and only ones who truely respect me for what and who I am. I'm hoping Erynn will get on that level one day, but its just time thats all I guess.
Wow this was a lengthy entry!
Wednesday work just fucking sucked. We just got our ass whoop all day long! YAY! Yesterday and today, I've been off and just trying to relax. I worked out yesterday twice and today once. I feel pretty good and I'm continuing to get in very good shape and I'm starting to tone up. Wednesday I also went and played some cards, and I didn't play well at all. It was pathetic. Today after I got done working out I went to the mall and bought some socks from Aeropostale and bought a necklace from Pac Sun. I love my socks, and I love my necklace. I personally think it looks badass. Then I came home and Erynn came over for a bit. She looked cute as hell but I wasn't digging the blue jean skirt, sorry Erynn :(. Well we chilled for a bit then she left and I had to clear things up with Matt D. because apparently he thought I said somethings to Erynn that I didn't. Well we cleared that up in a quick second. I tried to call Erynn earlier and she said she would call me back in a min which was at 8:45 and its now 11:15. Yea.....I txt'ed her what I wanted to tell her cause I didn't get to tell her at my house, but she hasn't responded. I don't think she is going to call me back ither, because she is probably drunk right about now. I just hope she is careful tonight thats all. I'm definitely going to miss her when she goes to Mexico. :(
I still haven't seen Dominic in a good month and I'm very anxious to see him and just chill with my best friend. Recently I've felt that friends had taken me for granted. Their is only 2 people in this world that don't take me for granted and thats Dominic and Jessica. Those 2 are the only ones who know what I'm really capable of and only ones who truely respect me for what and who I am. I'm hoping Erynn will get on that level one day, but its just time thats all I guess.
Wow this was a lengthy entry!