new year, new me.

[bubbazo]

New years was gay.
Sat in my room waiting for my "friends" to call me about a party we talked about.
1030 rolls around and no word, so i went to jacob's.
played guitar hero till 12.
got a call from Erin at 12:05 wishing me a happy new years. made me smile.
hang out this week.
then i came home at like 1.
real exciting.

but I had a real long talk with my mom last night.
I got a lot of things off my chest.
we both cried. alot.
she had a lot of valid points for what's going on in my life right now.
and i really appreciate it.
it made me look at things way differant.
i sent ash this long message basically spilling my guts.
she didn't respond.
i had a feeling she wouldn't.
which kind of made what my mom said true.

so now i know what needs to be done.
if i walk away now, maybe things will get better.
but i can't force change.
even if i have changed.

the ball is in your court.
i'm curious to see what you'll do.