repression
i'm going home for pesach on tuesday.
the same day that she's having more surgery.
because this is forever.
instead of dealing with this right now, i've decided to repress. hannah and i came up with a system over the years to repress but i havent been using it lately because i've been dealing with my feelings (barf).
HOWEVER this weekend is serendipity. and i will not have my good time mucked up by sitting around and thinking. i do that every other second. if i let myself do that i'll talk myself out of drinking and smoking because i'll be convinced that it's because i'm running away from my feelings. so i'm going to have a good time. nay, an awesome time.
and i'll deal with this later.
the same day that she's having more surgery.
because this is forever.
instead of dealing with this right now, i've decided to repress. hannah and i came up with a system over the years to repress but i havent been using it lately because i've been dealing with my feelings (barf).
HOWEVER this weekend is serendipity. and i will not have my good time mucked up by sitting around and thinking. i do that every other second. if i let myself do that i'll talk myself out of drinking and smoking because i'll be convinced that it's because i'm running away from my feelings. so i'm going to have a good time. nay, an awesome time.
and i'll deal with this later.