Echos of those we loved and lost

[bubbabearjxn]

Next Friday will be yet another anniversary of the day my good friend Steven Makin walked on from this life. As I think of him and try to imagine what he might be doing right now if he was still here tears run down my face. I know that he would not want me to be sad. He would want me to live in the moment and forget about the pain and the sense of loss. It's funny, those he's been gone a number or years now I'm still learning and feeling the the love that was in him. Steven was such a sweet spirit that he was loved by many people. His love of life was so contagious you couldn't help but fall in love with him. Though I miss him, my thoughts have not been of just the usual "I wish he was still here," but rather in thinking of him my thoughts have been more along the lines of thinking that I wish I was more like him. I wish that I had that spark within me that Steven had; that complete love of life and desire to live in the moment. I can only hope and pray that on the day I walk from this life that I will be half as well love as he was.

Every time I hear the song "Leave out all the rest" by Linkin Park these same thoughts fill my mind. When I'm gone will people miss me? Will they remember the good that I've done, or will that I only remember an asshole?

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here?

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

While still being true to the person I am, how to I become the kind of person that is loved by many? How do I "leave behind some reasons to be missed?"