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I don't know what it is...either my depression came back, or I'm just lazy...I don't really want to go to Jim's class...but I know I have too. I actually have to force myself to go like I use too before...this sucks...I think the only difference is that this time I have something to be depressed about. Stepping into Kenmore sq traffic this morning actually seemed like a good idea...but no. Maybe some other time.
(don't take any of this seriously, I'm not thinking clearly right now)....
I have no idea what I'm going to do about this damn research paper. I would be so lucky if this class isn't required anymore...but I don't want to fail...failure is never an option.
ahhhh how refreshing it is to beat myself up! Like my mom said, I can't go on being happy forever, now can I! I'm not allowed or something. I dunno...must be one of those unwritten rules.
I also seem to have a string of bad luck following me around recently...nothing serious...mostly stuff I laugh about later....like my soup not having the flavor thingy in the packet...or me spilling my watercolors and forgetting my color study...
hmmmm
I can't wait till summer...I need to get outta this place and not look back for 3 months. Who knows...Joi has practiaclly been begging me to go down to Florida, so maybe I should. I use to think about transferring, and Gail has said all good things about the schools down there, hmmmm. I do feel like I need to start again from scratch, and actually be myself.
But...I just talk...it ain't gonna happen. I can get through another 2 yrs...maybe 2 1/2 the way I'm going...
(don't take any of this seriously, I'm not thinking clearly right now)....
I have no idea what I'm going to do about this damn research paper. I would be so lucky if this class isn't required anymore...but I don't want to fail...failure is never an option.
ahhhh how refreshing it is to beat myself up! Like my mom said, I can't go on being happy forever, now can I! I'm not allowed or something. I dunno...must be one of those unwritten rules.
I also seem to have a string of bad luck following me around recently...nothing serious...mostly stuff I laugh about later....like my soup not having the flavor thingy in the packet...or me spilling my watercolors and forgetting my color study...
hmmmm
I can't wait till summer...I need to get outta this place and not look back for 3 months. Who knows...Joi has practiaclly been begging me to go down to Florida, so maybe I should. I use to think about transferring, and Gail has said all good things about the schools down there, hmmmm. I do feel like I need to start again from scratch, and actually be myself.
But...I just talk...it ain't gonna happen. I can get through another 2 yrs...maybe 2 1/2 the way I'm going...