PONDERING...
Well ym friends, Its been a long tiome...a VERY long time and a lot has changed...
First of, I moved to Mass. Pittsfield Mass. to be exact. I curently am a Chef at The CanyonRanch, its been consistently voted one of the Worlds Best Spa's, and i'm learning a whole lot here. I'm training to become a demostration chef there, as you all know i love to be the center of attention.
I live here with my girlfriend, Shanika. We've been together for about 1 1/2 years, and i love her. Some times its really hard to be with her and only her and know its possible for it to be this way for the rest of my life...but in life, you take chances. And sometimes i think this is a big chance...
So ANYWAYS... i've been thinking a lot lately... Is all this change, all this finally moving on to make something out of myself, is it worth it? Is it worth the friendships i've lost? The years i've lost being young. I wake up every morning AT 5 o'oclock, with my back and my knee's aching...and i don't feel at 20 years old that is right? is it? And thats anohther thing, its fucking 5 oclock, you are those that know me, i do not wake up that early...
So my friendships....those are some things that i have lost over the last 2 years...
Riy, Chris, Phil, Bill, Tim, jessica....ashleigh and missy...
those are the friends i've lost...and sometimes, yes i cry about the loss of them.
Were they holding me back? I don't know the answer to that, and to even begin to answer that would be unfair to myself and them... but the question still remains...Were they, holding me, back?
Listen i had all this planned out, but i can't type anymore,, i'll update soon, if i remmeber
Peace and love
Bubba
First of, I moved to Mass. Pittsfield Mass. to be exact. I curently am a Chef at The CanyonRanch, its been consistently voted one of the Worlds Best Spa's, and i'm learning a whole lot here. I'm training to become a demostration chef there, as you all know i love to be the center of attention.
I live here with my girlfriend, Shanika. We've been together for about 1 1/2 years, and i love her. Some times its really hard to be with her and only her and know its possible for it to be this way for the rest of my life...but in life, you take chances. And sometimes i think this is a big chance...
So ANYWAYS... i've been thinking a lot lately... Is all this change, all this finally moving on to make something out of myself, is it worth it? Is it worth the friendships i've lost? The years i've lost being young. I wake up every morning AT 5 o'oclock, with my back and my knee's aching...and i don't feel at 20 years old that is right? is it? And thats anohther thing, its fucking 5 oclock, you are those that know me, i do not wake up that early...
So my friendships....those are some things that i have lost over the last 2 years...
Riy, Chris, Phil, Bill, Tim, jessica....ashleigh and missy...
those are the friends i've lost...and sometimes, yes i cry about the loss of them.
Were they holding me back? I don't know the answer to that, and to even begin to answer that would be unfair to myself and them... but the question still remains...Were they, holding me, back?
Listen i had all this planned out, but i can't type anymore,, i'll update soon, if i remmeber
Peace and love
Bubba