i dont know why sometimes i get frightened
gosh im deliriously tired right now..you know when you're eyeballs glaze over and you start to see two or three? thats me being tired. dont know how ive managed to be up again late at night (well kinda late considering im at home and not completing storyboards). just felt the need to talk about how i have this overwhelming desire to throw up. i feel so fucking sick to my stomach but not sick in the physical sense of actual sickness...its "emotion sickness" (haha im so tacky - please diregard that quote) anyway, im filming for yet another doco tomorrow night. its for may-sie...and its of burlesque dancers/girls..i dont know the official term, but we're filming them. i hope we get to see naked girls. and next week helpin damo out with his music man doco thing...and then i think helping al at some point with his usher epic...and of course, i might help benny out if he wants, although i think he thinks ive avoided offering help. but at some point i will need to edit..and shoot some more footage of my own.
oh! and we're gonna try and smuggle james in tomorrow night...which will be fun because we can dance like bushmen! and we can dance with lesbians! just like the old days. gee, i feel a bit nostalgic. but really, hard to believe where i am at right now. feels good and feels odd. and i feel like a year cant have passed because its way too fast. degeneration is the word..maybe not, but certainly in terms of academic work. but morally? hmmm. it was just never an issue before. queensland was pretty good except for abusive phone calls and whatnot. i just dont understand some people...but hey, thats cool. oh and except (this is queensland) all the trashy-ness of the coast and some sadness about friends, or a friend. my head feels like it might be about to explode. can this be attributed to me or all the other fuckers? as i always say, a little from column a, a little from column b. was supposed to see faker tonight with sarah but we were both too exhausted, i even had a nap this arvo after animation.
i think when holidays come things will be better. but maybe my autumn (my rosebud) was actually a one-off, now unattainable object? i dont know. i do know right at this very moment it is hard to breathe..and i thought anxiety was a thing of the past.
oh! and we're gonna try and smuggle james in tomorrow night...which will be fun because we can dance like bushmen! and we can dance with lesbians! just like the old days. gee, i feel a bit nostalgic. but really, hard to believe where i am at right now. feels good and feels odd. and i feel like a year cant have passed because its way too fast. degeneration is the word..maybe not, but certainly in terms of academic work. but morally? hmmm. it was just never an issue before. queensland was pretty good except for abusive phone calls and whatnot. i just dont understand some people...but hey, thats cool. oh and except (this is queensland) all the trashy-ness of the coast and some sadness about friends, or a friend. my head feels like it might be about to explode. can this be attributed to me or all the other fuckers? as i always say, a little from column a, a little from column b. was supposed to see faker tonight with sarah but we were both too exhausted, i even had a nap this arvo after animation.
i think when holidays come things will be better. but maybe my autumn (my rosebud) was actually a one-off, now unattainable object? i dont know. i do know right at this very moment it is hard to breathe..and i thought anxiety was a thing of the past.