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Grubdog used to wake me up at 7:22 every morning.. not anymore.. now he sleeps in & so do I.. gator never wakes up.. he sleeps all day.. i basically move him from place to place.. he prefers the bed under all the pillows but the bed is off limits during the day so he sleeps on a chair next to the computer in the studio..
right now im listening to xmas music & thinking about my dad.. i had a nightmare that he died last night & the thought of never actually talking to him again is making me feel sick.. but if i called him right now i really have no idea what id say.. hes no good on the phone.. you gotta see him in person.. i guess over the past year ive realized that im a big family person & being so far from them has been extremely hard.. theatre bizarre wants us to come back for 2 months round halloween to help set up & for justin to built stuff.. but the cost of the flight & our rent here alone would be 1600 & we would need to find a car & a place to stay with the dogs.. i said lets go for a month.. lets try n make it work.. but the reality of the situation is it aint going to happen.. it just makes me feel better to think that it might.. bad way to think though.. now im just going to be sadder when we dont go..
god i love xmas music.. haha
I wake up these days & drink a large glass of water & eat some toast or yogurt & then i go work out at the Y.. being a normal human being takes up soo much time.. i never liked that kind of daily necessities kind of junk.. it makes me angry.. that also makes me angry..
I have all my materials to start on the Bee Troll.. but i still need to sculpt it.. justins forcing me to use this fancy clay that i cant work with until it heats up in some make shift oven i have to create.. this i think is way too much work just to get the clay soft.. but he wont make my mold unless i use this clay & you know what its a lot less work if he makes the mold.. so.. now i have to wait on him to get this fucking clay soft.. because ill just make a huge toxic mess if i try on my own.. right now its just dust.. but we got clear casting plastic & white & hot pink so basically i can create some amazing trolls.. glitter baby.. thats all im going to say.. im excited
dolly partons touring & ive been trying to win tickets like crazy but no luck..
other than that junes almost over..
right now im listening to xmas music & thinking about my dad.. i had a nightmare that he died last night & the thought of never actually talking to him again is making me feel sick.. but if i called him right now i really have no idea what id say.. hes no good on the phone.. you gotta see him in person.. i guess over the past year ive realized that im a big family person & being so far from them has been extremely hard.. theatre bizarre wants us to come back for 2 months round halloween to help set up & for justin to built stuff.. but the cost of the flight & our rent here alone would be 1600 & we would need to find a car & a place to stay with the dogs.. i said lets go for a month.. lets try n make it work.. but the reality of the situation is it aint going to happen.. it just makes me feel better to think that it might.. bad way to think though.. now im just going to be sadder when we dont go..
god i love xmas music.. haha
I wake up these days & drink a large glass of water & eat some toast or yogurt & then i go work out at the Y.. being a normal human being takes up soo much time.. i never liked that kind of daily necessities kind of junk.. it makes me angry.. that also makes me angry..
I have all my materials to start on the Bee Troll.. but i still need to sculpt it.. justins forcing me to use this fancy clay that i cant work with until it heats up in some make shift oven i have to create.. this i think is way too much work just to get the clay soft.. but he wont make my mold unless i use this clay & you know what its a lot less work if he makes the mold.. so.. now i have to wait on him to get this fucking clay soft.. because ill just make a huge toxic mess if i try on my own.. right now its just dust.. but we got clear casting plastic & white & hot pink so basically i can create some amazing trolls.. glitter baby.. thats all im going to say.. im excited
dolly partons touring & ive been trying to win tickets like crazy but no luck..
other than that junes almost over..