Jun 02, 2008 20:34
I can hardly type ive piled so much shit in front of the keyboard..
..i do a good job at life
I came home & instantly turned on the tv made myself a mickey mouse pancake & started watching a sweet 16 marathon.. now i feel like im going to die.. not that i shut it off or anything.. its still on & i can here it from here.. every episode sounds the same.. i think they all have the same sound track.. "but daaaady i want my car now.. i dont want the mercedes i want a range rover.. i dont want to buy my dress in LA i wanna go to paris.. i dont want that one i want this one.. they are ruining my party .. who are they anyways.. get them outta here.. its my birthday.. ill never speak to you again if you dont do what i want wa wa wa wa wa"..
I fucking hate the world & the stupid spoiled teenage shit fucks that are sharing my air.. yuck..
in between this tv show i watched a commercial for an upcoming show about girls fighting for the lead role in a musical version of legally blond.. LEGALLY FUCKING BLOND.. during the commercial one of the girls says something about this being her dream or some shit.. OH MY GOD.. these are the dreams of our future.. that was her dream for real.. how the fuck did she even think of that.. "one day when i grow up i want to be the star of legally blond the musical".. if this thought really came to her mind at some point in her past i am scared.. well im scared anyways..
on the metro i heard a guy answer his phone in all seriousness by saying "who dis".. it made me think of when i worked at the vet answering phones & what wouldve happened if i answered like that.. it was the most stereotypical phone conversation ever.. just think of what he said next because your right.. whatever your next thoughts are your right.. ill give you a hint he said dawg & yo..
i feel like an old lady.. it makes me fear what i will be like when im really old..
people are just dumb and i have no patience or compassion anymore.. im just a bitter old lady who spends her time spying on the neighbors and talking about the good ol days.. seriously im too old for this world.. i will be a slug or a mermaid next time round no doubt.. i do not want to be around for legally blond 2 the musical..
this is my last human lifetime.. maybe thats why ive been having so many nightmares.. because i got shit to do & i need to focus.. i need to fucking focus..
im also homesick.. i dont feel like explaining myself anymore.. i dont feel like telling people my name or where im from or what i do or where i live or what my favorite fucking spice girl is (its sporty spice by the way.. no im kidding haha fuck sporty spice did someone out there actual pick her as their favorite.. yuck why)i just feel like getting drunk on the porch in a place that nobody fucking cares about.. im trying to come home for halloween but money has never been my strong point..
speaking of spending money.. i think im going to rent an actual artist studio..hahahahahha.. no for real its only 100 bucks a month.. ill share it but hey thats cheap.. plus ive made a royal mess of my house & grub keeps stealn my puff balls.. the space is in the same building that the LA roller derby girls have their games.. so soon ill be a derby doll.. NOOOOOO fuck no thats terrifying.. i can hardly skate without peeing myself.. & i peed my tights in dance class as a child.. it sucks.. very uncomfortable situation..
not interested..
im looking at the space on thursday..
..well i need to finish watching that marathon