I hate when crap like this happens

[btterflyzj]

It's funny how you find out who your true friends are in life. I for one, seem to always find out the hard way. I have a friend at work that I used to get along with really well. We'd go to lunch together sometimes and I could talk to him about anything and he would always give me really good advice. Either that or he would just let me talk his ear off while he just listened. He became a really good friend, and eventually became friends with my husband Martin too. When Martin and I were going through a really rough time, I would talk to him about how I was feeling and get things off my chest. Later on, he betrayed me by telling Martin everything I had said, which really hurt me and really hurt Martin in the process. I wasn't ready to talk to Martin about what was going on with me, but he gave me no choice and made me look really bad by me not having said anything to Martin prior to this myself. When I asked him why he told Martin everything that I had told him in confidence as my friend, he replied that he didn't mean to hurt anyone, that he was just trying to make things better between us. I was still really hurt,but I decided that it was probably for the best and I let it go. Over the next few months, my friend and I started to grow apart. After he and I started going to lunch together, eventually the girl that started the job the same time that he did started going with us too, and then Martin got his lunch schedule changed and all four of us would go to lunch together. In the meantime, my friend and I and Martin started hanging out here and there a few times after work and on the weekend every now and then. I really thought that he was a good person and was becoming one of my best friends. I was glad that Martin had gotten to know him too and that it seemed that we had made a new friend, since our friendships with Dirk and Kelly really didn't work out and we didn't know anyone around here. It's nice to have friends to hang out with, you know? Anyway, then all of sudden, he started telling me that he wasn't going to go to lunch, that he was tired and he was just going to go sleep in his truck at lunch. So our other girl friend wouldn't go either, and Martin and I would have lunch alone together. This started happening more and more, and I began to think it was me and that he just didn't want to be friends anymore for some reason. It's hard when you work with these people because you have to see them everyday and interact with them and it can be awkward when you have personal issues going on at the same time. But then, recently, I started noticing that every time he would tell me he wasn't going to lunch, that I would see him pull into the parking lot with the other girl in his truck. I asked him what he did for lunch and he said nothing, and then when I asked her what she did for lunch, she told me she just went home and ate pizza. Funny though, her car never moved the whole time she was gone, and his truck was in a different spot. A lot of other things just kept happening and I began to be alienated more and more. Not that I give a rats ass what either one of them do on their lunch break, but I've lost what I thought was a good friend over this. He stopped hanging out with us after work, claiming that he hates his job so much that he doesn't even want to see people from work on the weekends, but then come to find out, he's hanging out with the other girl. Oh, did I mention she's much older, MARRIED, and has a 7 year old son? Nice, huh? It's none of my business what they are doing, but now I'm questioning my so-called friend's motives behind being my friend. Was he just trying to hook up with me, knowing I was going through a rough time in my marriage? It makes me wonder, now that I have serious reason to believe him and this girl are doing other things than eating together at lunch time. I feel like I've been dumped as a friend, and that's never a nice thing to deal with. Like, just because I didn't want to sleep with you, I'm not good enough to hang out with? Not that I would even want to at this point, it's just the fact of the matter. anyway, I don't know whether to say anything or just distance myself from them. I know me though, and I know I'll open my big mouth. But it's better than keeping it all bottled inside I guess.
I just wish Danene were here. I miss her to death. I don't have any real close friends here and I miss that.