will you be my valentine if i'm a world away?
I mostly celebrated Valentine's Day today and I absolutely adore my presents. I'll post pictures of them up later! Today was overall a great day, I didn't want to leave. But you know what? This day brought up a sort of conclusion that I gathered up. It's over, I can't keep holding on to something that's not there. Tonight, it's her night and I'm not going to complain or think about what ifs and whats going on. Nothing I can do so there's no use in trying, mind you this is my mind-set, I will try my hardest though to make it my action as well. Part of me has accepeted the fact that I am willing to wait for this and I don't care what people may say or what may come of it, I've at the very least accepted that part of me feels I should wait for this if necessary. However I need to realize that there is a very big possiblity that this will come to an abrupt end or that their feelings will turn from confusion to a plan about life, a plan that might not include me in it. It might include her or someone else. I have to realize that. I can't let it control my every day actions but the possibility that this is a permanent separation is a reality, especially since we are getting older and what not.