you know what
ive been thinking about it, and you..
and you know who you are, you know
what you did and you know how i am..
but whats funny is not the fact that
now you know what u lost and what you
had..but the fact that you think im
that stupid or maybe that i forgot or
something. its weird how you act like
none of this ever happened...and the
fact that you cant just pick up where
you left off kills you. its so hard to
find out who someone is after being so
sure about them for so long. its just
a slap in the face...like all of the
things you said or did for them never
happened-well i guess i wouldve been
better off, if never was only an option..
I dont want to look back and i dont want
to look at you. For now ill just look down,
and deny the way i felt, and for some reason,
the way i will always feel. nothing will change
and neither will you. ive moved on and im not
hurt anymore, more like shocked, i thought it
was over and i convinced myself things would stay
that way, i prepared myself for the worst, and
then u come right back. and ill admit that it
made me wonder, and i pictured what itd be like but
im not willing to find out, or put anything at
risk. your not worth that time or energy and i
finally have the one thing, that you could never
give me, or anyone for that matter...and im not
about to lose that to you. i guess what im trying
to say is that i hate you so bad it hurts. but then
again that doesnt make much sense..
does it?
and you know who you are, you know
what you did and you know how i am..
but whats funny is not the fact that
now you know what u lost and what you
had..but the fact that you think im
that stupid or maybe that i forgot or
something. its weird how you act like
none of this ever happened...and the
fact that you cant just pick up where
you left off kills you. its so hard to
find out who someone is after being so
sure about them for so long. its just
a slap in the face...like all of the
things you said or did for them never
happened-well i guess i wouldve been
better off, if never was only an option..
I dont want to look back and i dont want
to look at you. For now ill just look down,
and deny the way i felt, and for some reason,
the way i will always feel. nothing will change
and neither will you. ive moved on and im not
hurt anymore, more like shocked, i thought it
was over and i convinced myself things would stay
that way, i prepared myself for the worst, and
then u come right back. and ill admit that it
made me wonder, and i pictured what itd be like but
im not willing to find out, or put anything at
risk. your not worth that time or energy and i
finally have the one thing, that you could never
give me, or anyone for that matter...and im not
about to lose that to you. i guess what im trying
to say is that i hate you so bad it hurts. but then
again that doesnt make much sense..
does it?