Not actively unhappy
Since creating this journal I know that I have used it mostly as a place to vent. A place to share with the world how unhappy I am. Now that I'm not actively unhappy(which is not the same thing at as actually happy) I don't tend to use it as much.
Pregnancy is exciting but I can't help but give into my misgivings about being able to provide well for a child or be a good parent.
My business is going well. Like really well. I would have been over joyed in Ma to have this kind of success. At 26 I have been in my field for 7 years. A large part of me knows that at this point I am continuing to do what I do so that i can reach my coveted 10 year mark. It would be a statement of pride to me to say that I got trained as a Massage Therapist and then worked in that field for 10 years, all before my 30th birthday. I also know that I don't want to do it much longer then that.
Both Devon and I enjoy our new apartment and are slowly rebuilding a house hold and replacing the things we jettisoned when we moved.
All in all life is good down here. We've made friends, have jobs, but still can't manage to have 2 working cars at the same time (we are working on it). I have to say that I'm content with life as it is. That is a hell of a lot better then being depressed and miserable where we were just a little over a year ago. I hope as our life progresses down here I can start bloging about happier things rather then just the unhappy.
Pregnancy is exciting but I can't help but give into my misgivings about being able to provide well for a child or be a good parent.
My business is going well. Like really well. I would have been over joyed in Ma to have this kind of success. At 26 I have been in my field for 7 years. A large part of me knows that at this point I am continuing to do what I do so that i can reach my coveted 10 year mark. It would be a statement of pride to me to say that I got trained as a Massage Therapist and then worked in that field for 10 years, all before my 30th birthday. I also know that I don't want to do it much longer then that.
Both Devon and I enjoy our new apartment and are slowly rebuilding a house hold and replacing the things we jettisoned when we moved.
All in all life is good down here. We've made friends, have jobs, but still can't manage to have 2 working cars at the same time (we are working on it). I have to say that I'm content with life as it is. That is a hell of a lot better then being depressed and miserable where we were just a little over a year ago. I hope as our life progresses down here I can start bloging about happier things rather then just the unhappy.