what happens when you're in love and dont know how to deal?!

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My spring break was good. But some what confusing. I love Jon... all i can say. I wrote him a three page letter today, i just need the strenght to give it to him later. We talked, i thought i ment what i was saying, but i didn't. I'm afraid of a relationship, but I've finally realized that that doesn't mean i dont want it. And i feel selfish as hell. But not really, buecause i feel in love. I've never loved ANYONE... well.. you know what i mean, i've never been in love. I am and i'm enjoying it, even if it makes me miserable, its an experience that is all mine, and hopefully Jon will join me soon. I sound like such a sape, but i guess these are just the feelings filling my little love sick head at the moment. I need help. Lol. I love you guys.

Love
Kristi

P.S. Drew i hope you had fun on your birthday. Sorry we didn't get to hang out, had to work. I love you.