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So not a lot of posting as of lately.. A ton has been going on none of it really good, got laid off, got a new job, crappy pay. Temple still rules.
As of tonight my world has been turned upside down. My mother has informed me that her cancer is back, and not only is it back, it's every where, my mother is 42 years old, she was diagnosed with breast cancer 6 years ago SIX YEARS AGO SHE WAS 36, that is too young, she informed me that it is in her neck, back, leg and liver.. Seriously why my mom, never smoked a cigarette, never drank, never did or does drugs, it makes no sense.
I have a feeling this time she isn't going to make it, she's different this time, no "I am gonna make it through this speech" no "it's gonna be ok speech" just a lot of "they are gonna do what they can" She gets the port put in next week, and starts chemo on the 23rd. I can't stop crying. I don't know what to say or do.. I am the one that always knows what to say or do.. Not this time, not when it's my mom.
She told me this tonight, but she mentioned something about a hutch that she has earlier this week, she said to me "well you get first dibs on it"... Like she wasn't going to be around or something.. WTF
I know it's not healthy to think about but how can I not think about how am I going to go on with my life without my mom. it's not feesible.....
As of tonight my world has been turned upside down. My mother has informed me that her cancer is back, and not only is it back, it's every where, my mother is 42 years old, she was diagnosed with breast cancer 6 years ago SIX YEARS AGO SHE WAS 36, that is too young, she informed me that it is in her neck, back, leg and liver.. Seriously why my mom, never smoked a cigarette, never drank, never did or does drugs, it makes no sense.
I have a feeling this time she isn't going to make it, she's different this time, no "I am gonna make it through this speech" no "it's gonna be ok speech" just a lot of "they are gonna do what they can" She gets the port put in next week, and starts chemo on the 23rd. I can't stop crying. I don't know what to say or do.. I am the one that always knows what to say or do.. Not this time, not when it's my mom.
She told me this tonight, but she mentioned something about a hutch that she has earlier this week, she said to me "well you get first dibs on it"... Like she wasn't going to be around or something.. WTF
I know it's not healthy to think about but how can I not think about how am I going to go on with my life without my mom. it's not feesible.....