Early Triggers
Huh. Who would have thought that I...would choose to exclude the manliness existance in my life for the next 5 years...indeed. I haven't been as happy as I am right now since before I starting dating *and thus throwing my life away to rediculous obsessions with love* *****gets idea to watch moulin rouge and scoff***** about being alone. And I look at that word, and realize that it's not in a negative connotation. I can't help but smile. Be happy! Life is beautiful with or without love or friendship or whatever. Celebrate how you are alone or together or whatever. It's all about feeling good. Thank you my good strong immune system for keeping me alive! Because it is so great to be alive. Except I'm sick right now. But that's okay. I get more interestign ideas when I'm sick. I feel like writing something because I haven't written in "the notebook" in a very long time. Nor have I drawn anything to put in it. I just got really sad though. Cuz I really miss my doggie. She's so beautiful. And such a lover to people and life and playing. But she's sick..and 13 years old. And she's a little chihuahua-pug gorgeous hunk of dog. I'm so glad I get to see her and spend time with her on Monday and Wednesdays now. Cuz I don't know how much more time I have with her. Back to happy thoughts. My brother's around too now cuz of his whole ordeal with the Navy. And I have missed hanging out with him a lot. I really miss the togetherness of my family. We don't really have it anymore. And everyone is moving around. I can't believe that in less than 10 years, I shall expect to be married and either with child, or having a child, or had a child. SCARY!! I love my nephews to death. I just don't see myself with one yet. And I'm sorry if Mr. Right happens along my course in the next 5 years and I'll hate having to say no or anything to him because I want to finish my goals. >sigh<. What a life. And in all honesty, I'm so glad I didn't go to a 4 year university. Who knows what dumb shit I would have done with my life **looks at a few examples of past and present** ((and no not any of you))