Well a Emperor Selassie I, what would an old timer say?
my life is awesome.
i simply cant believe that things are going so incredibly well. so much has happened in so few years. i feel like i've accomplished more in the past 2 years than i did in my 4 years in high school and the 1 year in college.
what a joke.
i remember when i made the decision to quit school that i was nervous and unsure of myself. for someone who was drilled that school was so important....making the decision to quit was huge. and here i am! i'm the happiest little fuck in the world. it's like i ignored such a huge part of my life for so long. i've already been ahead of the game since i was a kid. everyone else learns their trade when they're my age. it's exactly that. most people are going to college to figure out what they're gonna do for a job, learn their job to do it. i have been doing 'my job' since i was born. i am a master's daughter. i've had a future handed to me since day one. and at first it was a blessing as a kid, then a burden as a teen, and now truly a blessing again as a young adult. my dad taught it, my boyfriend showed me how to make it my career. it's like i needed someone else on the outside to show me something that was plainly in my face. i teach kids something i'm truly good at. i didnt go to college for books....but i've studied tkd for 19 years. and i'm still no expert.
i feel so full of myself. but not in sinful way. i'm just really proud. i'm going through a hard time in tkd right now anyways. i'm going to compete for the first time in 9 years. i'm gonna FIGHT. i surprise myself at times. the training is so hard. so fucking hard. and i'm bruised and sore and tired and my calf muscles hurt like a bitch from staying on the ball of my feet so much. and there are times when i'm just SO out of breath i swear i'm having an asthma attack and i'm STILL KICKING.
the day i compete will be when i truly went over this hurdle.
i have been scared of competing for 9 years. i've been running away from the true test of whether i'm a real hardcore black belt.
do i know my shit?
here's the question bryna...
can you kick ass?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_gcWAb5Dvz4
i simply cant believe that things are going so incredibly well. so much has happened in so few years. i feel like i've accomplished more in the past 2 years than i did in my 4 years in high school and the 1 year in college.
what a joke.
i remember when i made the decision to quit school that i was nervous and unsure of myself. for someone who was drilled that school was so important....making the decision to quit was huge. and here i am! i'm the happiest little fuck in the world. it's like i ignored such a huge part of my life for so long. i've already been ahead of the game since i was a kid. everyone else learns their trade when they're my age. it's exactly that. most people are going to college to figure out what they're gonna do for a job, learn their job to do it. i have been doing 'my job' since i was born. i am a master's daughter. i've had a future handed to me since day one. and at first it was a blessing as a kid, then a burden as a teen, and now truly a blessing again as a young adult. my dad taught it, my boyfriend showed me how to make it my career. it's like i needed someone else on the outside to show me something that was plainly in my face. i teach kids something i'm truly good at. i didnt go to college for books....but i've studied tkd for 19 years. and i'm still no expert.
i feel so full of myself. but not in sinful way. i'm just really proud. i'm going through a hard time in tkd right now anyways. i'm going to compete for the first time in 9 years. i'm gonna FIGHT. i surprise myself at times. the training is so hard. so fucking hard. and i'm bruised and sore and tired and my calf muscles hurt like a bitch from staying on the ball of my feet so much. and there are times when i'm just SO out of breath i swear i'm having an asthma attack and i'm STILL KICKING.
the day i compete will be when i truly went over this hurdle.
i have been scared of competing for 9 years. i've been running away from the true test of whether i'm a real hardcore black belt.
do i know my shit?
here's the question bryna...
can you kick ass?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_gcWAb5Dvz4