traveling
today is my last day here. thanksgiving.
last day waking up in my own bed with my B next to me.
i'm nervous and excited at the same time.
i wonder how the school will run without me there. i know i'll be coming back to a...slight headache and lots of paperwork to do. i'm gonna miss teaching my students and seeing them every week. i know it's not a big deal cuz i'll be back. but i've grown used to my routine and i rather like it. i guess the biggest part is that i'm leaving....and eventually i wont have B around anymore. just a month. but...i dont feel good about it. i know separation can be beneficial. but it just doesnt feel good right now.
i'm worried about coming back completely....broke. literally. starting from scratch when i come back is going to be hella hard.
i'm selling some fur coats on ebay in hopes that it'll earn me some extra cash.
oh jesus. i know once i'm there in brazil it'll be fine. once i see val and nadia and kathleen ang roger. and my grandparents and uncles and aunts. i know it'll be fine once i'm there. i know it'll be worth it and i know i'll have an incredible time.
but until then...i feel like shit knowing i'm gonna be 'alone'.
last time i was in brazil. is when marcos died. and the time before then is when i met daniel.
i wonder what news it'll bring this time. always life changing.
traveling that is.
i can't wait till bruno gets there and we start our back packing trip to bahia. chapada diamante. i want to mine some of my own crystals. and hopefully my roommate james will be going to. and the plan is that val and nadia too. for a little bit of time at least.
who wants to go backpacking in brazil?
the adventure starts day after christmas.
i'll bring my uniform. and my blackbelt. and probably a jump rope. but i doubt i'll get to train....
last day waking up in my own bed with my B next to me.
i'm nervous and excited at the same time.
i wonder how the school will run without me there. i know i'll be coming back to a...slight headache and lots of paperwork to do. i'm gonna miss teaching my students and seeing them every week. i know it's not a big deal cuz i'll be back. but i've grown used to my routine and i rather like it. i guess the biggest part is that i'm leaving....and eventually i wont have B around anymore. just a month. but...i dont feel good about it. i know separation can be beneficial. but it just doesnt feel good right now.
i'm worried about coming back completely....broke. literally. starting from scratch when i come back is going to be hella hard.
i'm selling some fur coats on ebay in hopes that it'll earn me some extra cash.
oh jesus. i know once i'm there in brazil it'll be fine. once i see val and nadia and kathleen ang roger. and my grandparents and uncles and aunts. i know it'll be fine once i'm there. i know it'll be worth it and i know i'll have an incredible time.
but until then...i feel like shit knowing i'm gonna be 'alone'.
last time i was in brazil. is when marcos died. and the time before then is when i met daniel.
i wonder what news it'll bring this time. always life changing.
traveling that is.
i can't wait till bruno gets there and we start our back packing trip to bahia. chapada diamante. i want to mine some of my own crystals. and hopefully my roommate james will be going to. and the plan is that val and nadia too. for a little bit of time at least.
who wants to go backpacking in brazil?
the adventure starts day after christmas.
i'll bring my uniform. and my blackbelt. and probably a jump rope. but i doubt i'll get to train....