Those days that just suck
Today was just one of those days that makes me stop and think just how much my life can suck sometimes. First off i had a meeting today about my academic standing and they told me that the only way i can continue to attend alma is if i get a 3.5 GPA this term. yeah, right. like i can do that with the classes that i have. first off i have understanding mass comm with vickery MWF at 10:30, followed immediately by American Century with lorenz at 11:30. the sheer ammount of writing involved in these classes is enough to make me cry. that doesn't even include my english class that meets TTH at 2:30. i love the times that my classes meet because i can sleep in, but the ammount of work that i'm going to have to do is just going to kill me. i really don't think there is any way that i can earn a 3.5. if i don't that means goodbye alma. goodbye 2nd north bruske. goodbye roommates. that's really the worst part. i can deal with having to leave school. i know that normal education is just not the way that i learn, but it's the fact that i will have to leave alma and not be with all the new people that i have come to love.
But it always seems that whenever i think that i have found people who appreciate me for me, it turns out that i am only being used because i am good at something that they need. it seems that the only time people talk to me when i'm not standing right in front of them is when they need help with something computer or electronic related. the only phone calls that i get are from people who need me to fix their computer. it's not that i don't enjoy doing it, but it gets very frustrating when the only reason that people know who i am is because they know i will fix their electronic related problem. i know that most people don't mean for that to happen. well.. at least i hope that is the case. its just frustrating when i have to start conversations that ultimately end up nowhere because they don't involve me fixing a problem. what makes it worse is to see those people start conversations right in front of me and not even acknowledge my existence. i'm probably just blowing this out of proportion because i didn't get enough sleep last night and i won't be getting enough sleep tonight either, but what the hell i'm in college these kinds of things happen and i just have to sit on the sidelines and watch everyone else make the plays.
But it always seems that whenever i think that i have found people who appreciate me for me, it turns out that i am only being used because i am good at something that they need. it seems that the only time people talk to me when i'm not standing right in front of them is when they need help with something computer or electronic related. the only phone calls that i get are from people who need me to fix their computer. it's not that i don't enjoy doing it, but it gets very frustrating when the only reason that people know who i am is because they know i will fix their electronic related problem. i know that most people don't mean for that to happen. well.. at least i hope that is the case. its just frustrating when i have to start conversations that ultimately end up nowhere because they don't involve me fixing a problem. what makes it worse is to see those people start conversations right in front of me and not even acknowledge my existence. i'm probably just blowing this out of proportion because i didn't get enough sleep last night and i won't be getting enough sleep tonight either, but what the hell i'm in college these kinds of things happen and i just have to sit on the sidelines and watch everyone else make the plays.