every tear that falls will in remembrance of you
yesterday was fun. i was out of school and ryan was off work. it was nice. i enjoyed just hanging out with him. i had to do a lot of research for mom and dad for their anniversary...which is today. then i went to hilsboro with mom and ran into kalya, tyler, laura, and heather.
ive got to run to walmart later with ryan to get things for mrs. knox's class and for our spanish play. i think that finally....if we can really get everything together, it could be pretty great.
ive been worrying alot lately. about ryan getting the money for school and the money for the car. and whether or not i will be able to get everything done by december. i just really want school to be over with. that way i can start saving some much needed money and we can plan better. once ryan is out of school, money will not be an issue, but for now it is...and i have to admitt its making me a littl nervous.
me and ryan had a long talk about kelcy last night. he promised to stop letting kelcy rule our relationship. then i talked to kelcy and i promised him that i would stop letting ryan control mine and his relationship. that i would stop just calling him when ryan wasnt around and i would stop acting differnt when ryan was around me and him. hopefully i can start making the both of them happy. i just dont think ryan understands the fact that i need someone other than him....because he doesnt have anyone else. anyway...hopefully things will get better soon.
i realized that we only have like 11 or 12 days left...and even though i am anxious for school to be over with, i really havent even thought about how i am going to cope with the loss of Kelcy. i dont like thinking about it....i feel my heart break every time i do.....
love to all
<3<3<3
ive got to run to walmart later with ryan to get things for mrs. knox's class and for our spanish play. i think that finally....if we can really get everything together, it could be pretty great.
ive been worrying alot lately. about ryan getting the money for school and the money for the car. and whether or not i will be able to get everything done by december. i just really want school to be over with. that way i can start saving some much needed money and we can plan better. once ryan is out of school, money will not be an issue, but for now it is...and i have to admitt its making me a littl nervous.
me and ryan had a long talk about kelcy last night. he promised to stop letting kelcy rule our relationship. then i talked to kelcy and i promised him that i would stop letting ryan control mine and his relationship. that i would stop just calling him when ryan wasnt around and i would stop acting differnt when ryan was around me and him. hopefully i can start making the both of them happy. i just dont think ryan understands the fact that i need someone other than him....because he doesnt have anyone else. anyway...hopefully things will get better soon.
i realized that we only have like 11 or 12 days left...and even though i am anxious for school to be over with, i really havent even thought about how i am going to cope with the loss of Kelcy. i dont like thinking about it....i feel my heart break every time i do.....
love to all
<3<3<3