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Today was good until recently. Cossondre's not moving with me. shes going to move to her dads.In ohio (near ohio) It sucks she's leaving ultra soon aka this weekend. I'm gonna have to see her one day soon. Cause i'll not seeing her for a while. It makes me feel... well i'll let you read the e-mail i sent her...
i know your leaving cossondre. and theres nothing i can do to stop you. I never really wanted to stop you. Its just i was scred for you and myself. I don't know your dad, or anything about his past or how you get along with him. and i'm scaredthat your going to leave and something terribles gonna happen to you and i won't be there to help you. then again thats not the only reason. I feel like loosing you would be like loosing a piece of myself. I know we'd still talk often. But just the separation from you would hurt me. I really try not to think of it as never seeing you again. and you know if anything ever went wrong you could come right back and stay with me. But you and me have been tight this last year. and not seeing you once every 3 weeks bugs me. cause i'm always worried how are you, has anyone made you mad, are u scared like i am? This world is pretty fucked up. and not seeing you for months at a time's going to make me sad. Yet if i knew you were happy where you were i'd be more confident. so basicly i want you, to be happy, if u ever have an emergancy call me. even if something really shitty happens in school to go into the bathroom and call me and then i'd like fake throwing up to run to the bathroom to call u back asap. and remember that i'll always be here. even though my biological sister lives in calafornia i still talk to her often and on the scale your even more of a sister to keep in touch with. i'll miss you alot. love ya like a sister forever
emu-ish? thats kinda how i feel though.
I went to a church in westminister today. The minister of music offered me a job. i was like, if i'm ever down there i'll take you up on that offer. And there kool cause they play techno music instead of classical hymns. And i had fun with jodie and matt, and akiel. then jodie told me how she cuts herself and i told her how i did before. and she showed me and i wanted to cry cause i knew how she felt. but i got tears in my eyes and she said she doesn't care about anyone because she's learned to hate everyone one including me. I was just like :( and walked away.
i know your leaving cossondre. and theres nothing i can do to stop you. I never really wanted to stop you. Its just i was scred for you and myself. I don't know your dad, or anything about his past or how you get along with him. and i'm scaredthat your going to leave and something terribles gonna happen to you and i won't be there to help you. then again thats not the only reason. I feel like loosing you would be like loosing a piece of myself. I know we'd still talk often. But just the separation from you would hurt me. I really try not to think of it as never seeing you again. and you know if anything ever went wrong you could come right back and stay with me. But you and me have been tight this last year. and not seeing you once every 3 weeks bugs me. cause i'm always worried how are you, has anyone made you mad, are u scared like i am? This world is pretty fucked up. and not seeing you for months at a time's going to make me sad. Yet if i knew you were happy where you were i'd be more confident. so basicly i want you, to be happy, if u ever have an emergancy call me. even if something really shitty happens in school to go into the bathroom and call me and then i'd like fake throwing up to run to the bathroom to call u back asap. and remember that i'll always be here. even though my biological sister lives in calafornia i still talk to her often and on the scale your even more of a sister to keep in touch with. i'll miss you alot. love ya like a sister forever
emu-ish? thats kinda how i feel though.
I went to a church in westminister today. The minister of music offered me a job. i was like, if i'm ever down there i'll take you up on that offer. And there kool cause they play techno music instead of classical hymns. And i had fun with jodie and matt, and akiel. then jodie told me how she cuts herself and i told her how i did before. and she showed me and i wanted to cry cause i knew how she felt. but i got tears in my eyes and she said she doesn't care about anyone because she's learned to hate everyone one including me. I was just like :( and walked away.