Attitude
I am a big believer in attitude, meaning I believe we really are as happy as our attitude allows us to be. No matter what is going on in our lives, it truly is possible to make the best of it and still have happiness. I really can't explain what I mean by happiness so that everyone will understand because the happiness I'm speaking of here is not the big picture but very small fractions of each given day. There is a quote that I usually try to keep in mind as I go through each day, I don't remember the exact quote but basically it means ... we don't remember days, we remember moments.
When I get frustrated with what life is dealing me, as I was over the past couple of weeks and I get depressed, I forget this. My strength is my ability to enjoy moments and little things, when I lose that and start letting the big picture become too heavy on my mind, I start to feel like I am spinning out of control and will shatter at any minute. My last post reflects that. When this happens and I become aware I am starting to become bitter, overwhelmed, depressed or all of those ::g:: I usually have a long talk with myself. I remind myself to enjoy each moment and that there are many things in each given day to enjoy. I am happy to say that it usually works and even though I may still be sad, I am happy at the same time. Maybe this doesn't make any sense to anyone but me or it sounds cheesy to some of you that are hell bent on doom and gloom but it works for me.
All this said I do feel better... I may laugh and cry many times in one day, but at least I still have the laughter and have recovered the ability to cry. No I'm not manic btw that has nothing to do with it. My one big obstacle right now and it's one I don't think I can get around no matter how hard I try, is feeling alone. No matter how many people I am surrounded with at any given time, I feel totally alone. Not really a good feeling, but this too shall pass. Just not right now, though it will be fixed temporarily soon for a few day's and like always I will cherish every moment. And thank you jen for reminding me as I so freely remind you but not myself it will be ok.