hello again,
this is kind of a wierd entry. i dont know really know what to say, but i feel like i have plenty of things i want/need to get out. i used to write on this thing all the time. i was either in a great mood, or bummed about something. it's strange that the only time i write on this thing is when my emotions are out of sync. the wierd thing is this time i dont really think im sad, but i know im not happy. i'm tired of making mistakes, doing stupid stuff. i've been here before and its not the most fun place to be. i found a speech that i wrote for a search team presentation freshman year. i was reading it, and it kinda blew my mind. i had so much more faith back then. i used to care so much more about that aspect of my life, and even though i know that was a low point in my life too, i still knew what to say, what to think. i think that's my biggest problem now, i'm just kinda stuck in a ditch. i don't know what to do next. 6 months ago, i had things figured out. stuff changes so easily... i dont know... i'm a nerd.
-brandon
-brandon