Where did everything go?
Do you ever have those moments in life where you feel like too much is changing all at once and you wish that everything would stay the way it was?
Sometimes I feel like life is moving too fast, and although I like the direction it is heading, I wish I could hold on to those moments that I know I will never see, or have again.
I was listening to an Elvis song tonight and I remembered this one day when I was little, and there was an Elvis movie marathon on TV. and I sat there all day watching these classic movies with my dad. It’s a wonderful memory of when life was simple, I had no worries to fill my mind, and I could sit there for hours with no guilt of knowing I had other things to be doing. Adulthood seemed so far away and that nothing would ever change, but now that I’m older, I know there are things I’m going to have to let go whether I want to, or not.
I started a new job yesterday, and although I love it so much, it’s different, new and I feel small. I went from being a supervisor, where I was in charge and people came to me when they had questions, to not knowing anything and having to learn all over.
I’m going to miss working at Papa Murphy’s with Bryan, Angie, Ashley, Josh and the rest of the crew. I miss my grandma who has been gone for 4 and half years. I miss high school and proms. I miss walking to Quick Stop with Karli to buy our hot Cheeto’s and soda. I miss going to Lyon’s with Justin and driving around half the night trying to find something to do. I miss hanging out with Katie by the pool and eating our ice cream and chili cheese fries while listening to BSB. I miss driving to Krispy Kream with Kelly at midnight to fill our sweet tooth. I miss watching movies with Diana, singing with Mandy and getting into trouble with the both of them. I miss talking to Mom and Dad on Saturday mornings while they made breakfast.
I know my grandpa doesn’t have too much longer here on this Earth, and my Carmel kitty isn’t looking too good either. I’m going to miss working with Bryan and knowing that he will be there for me if I mess up at work. I used to look forward to working with him and was always so eager to pick him up and take him to work with me. I don’t even have time to write as much anymore, which I love doing so much.
Life is changing to rapidly and I feel like I’m starting to loose control of things. Even my room is different since I got a new bed set, new curtains, computer, printer, new CD player, decorations for my wall, book shelf, file folders and took down my paper lanterns. I got two little bumps removed from my forehead and I don’t wear make-up as often, so even my face looks different when I look in the mirror. I haven’t been to Java Aroma in what seems like forever. I have a new car, which is really messy right now and I have to wash. Mom planted new flowers, and we have a doggy door in the glass sliding door, which all makes the house feel different.
Even though most of these changes are great and wonderful, it is still change, and it feels different. I’m not really sure what I am getting at here, but I know it’s something. I just sort of feel like crying, or something. I just need to go to bed. I’m sure I’ll feel better in the morning and I will be able to think more clearly then.
Until next time - good night.
Sometimes I feel like life is moving too fast, and although I like the direction it is heading, I wish I could hold on to those moments that I know I will never see, or have again.
I was listening to an Elvis song tonight and I remembered this one day when I was little, and there was an Elvis movie marathon on TV. and I sat there all day watching these classic movies with my dad. It’s a wonderful memory of when life was simple, I had no worries to fill my mind, and I could sit there for hours with no guilt of knowing I had other things to be doing. Adulthood seemed so far away and that nothing would ever change, but now that I’m older, I know there are things I’m going to have to let go whether I want to, or not.
I started a new job yesterday, and although I love it so much, it’s different, new and I feel small. I went from being a supervisor, where I was in charge and people came to me when they had questions, to not knowing anything and having to learn all over.
I’m going to miss working at Papa Murphy’s with Bryan, Angie, Ashley, Josh and the rest of the crew. I miss my grandma who has been gone for 4 and half years. I miss high school and proms. I miss walking to Quick Stop with Karli to buy our hot Cheeto’s and soda. I miss going to Lyon’s with Justin and driving around half the night trying to find something to do. I miss hanging out with Katie by the pool and eating our ice cream and chili cheese fries while listening to BSB. I miss driving to Krispy Kream with Kelly at midnight to fill our sweet tooth. I miss watching movies with Diana, singing with Mandy and getting into trouble with the both of them. I miss talking to Mom and Dad on Saturday mornings while they made breakfast.
I know my grandpa doesn’t have too much longer here on this Earth, and my Carmel kitty isn’t looking too good either. I’m going to miss working with Bryan and knowing that he will be there for me if I mess up at work. I used to look forward to working with him and was always so eager to pick him up and take him to work with me. I don’t even have time to write as much anymore, which I love doing so much.
Life is changing to rapidly and I feel like I’m starting to loose control of things. Even my room is different since I got a new bed set, new curtains, computer, printer, new CD player, decorations for my wall, book shelf, file folders and took down my paper lanterns. I got two little bumps removed from my forehead and I don’t wear make-up as often, so even my face looks different when I look in the mirror. I haven’t been to Java Aroma in what seems like forever. I have a new car, which is really messy right now and I have to wash. Mom planted new flowers, and we have a doggy door in the glass sliding door, which all makes the house feel different.
Even though most of these changes are great and wonderful, it is still change, and it feels different. I’m not really sure what I am getting at here, but I know it’s something. I just sort of feel like crying, or something. I just need to go to bed. I’m sure I’ll feel better in the morning and I will be able to think more clearly then.
Until next time - good night.