i know i haven't updated in a while.
it's raining! blah. you know i was talking to michelle yesterday, i was telling her that when i was in middle school, everyone hated me and my best friend. the only reason they hated me was because i befriended this new girl in school (my best friend) and she totally changed me into something good, if i hadn't met her i would totally be a female baller! i was all into the rap scene, you know that whole style? well when i met my best friend i totally changed, i got into rock music and boybands! lmao. good times. so anyways, when i was in 6th, 7th, and 8th grade i always thought to myself "i wonder what high school is gonna be like, i'm going to leave all these people that just bring my life down, and i'm going to go on and make some new friends" well i guess my expectations weren't all what i expected. since junior year last year i've had a crappy time, i went through a whole bad experience with an ex-boyfriend, his friends bugged the shit outta me, and i realized that there is no one in my school that i can actually trust! everyone who's anyone is a stab in the back. you tell one person one thing and they turn that whole story into a bogus story! and pretty soon everyone believes it. but you know what, this makes me even more wanna be famous! i'm gonna show all those a-holes that because of them they made me fullfill my dreams! my girls(they know who they are!) they believe in me! and i can truly say that they are my true friends! they've been there for me when i needed someone to talk to, or cry on, and just to tell them how my day was. i always tell michelle how they can make a reality show, or a soap opera, or even a movie out of my life. lol. their were some other people that i was friends with before, not anymore, but due to some stupid things (that to this day i still don't know what the f*** happened! lmao) but even they were better friends then people i thought were my friends! througout this whole year i got to the point where i wanted to just leave school and go somewhere else and not tell anyone, as in a differ. school. but that's like showing them that they brought me down, i'm just glad that i only have less than 2 months before i leave. you know if i could turn back time i would do it in a flash! as for my love life! lol i always tell everyone "i'm not having any kind of love life till i'm 25! lmao, but that can always change. =) but i have to go eat now, so to all a good day! =)