Sorry
i just want to apologize for any of my weird behavior the past few days (starting graduation time) and the next few days to come. i was having trouble dealing with my uncle's increasingly worse cancer. Today, he passed away with a smile on his face. It's been incredibly hard to deal with and at the same time its not setting in.. The last thing he ever told me while he was crying was that i (or my brother since we are both standing there) was his favorite. i think it mite have been me because we were close. He told me he was proud of me the last time he was still mobile. then suddenly he could not move and soon not talk, then not focus, then not eat. And as of today, not breathe. i know some people will assume i am writing this for attention, and i am a drama queen. and i amsorry thats how i do seeem, but i am not going to pretend everything is fine. and i am not gonna say i don't feel alone. i am sorry if i behave strangely. this is the first death i have experienced when i knew and loved the person intimately all my life. Yeah i'm a bit dramatic.