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He's gone and left me!
WOOOO.
I'm pretty bummed. I just don't understand how someone can decide they don't love someone so abruptly.
Looking back on the rare times I update this thing, I can see moving in together was a huge mistake.
I'm trying not to be too bummed out by this, despite my 2 year relationship failing spectacularly. I still love him dearly but am trying to distance myself from him so as not to hurt myself further. He seems annoyed by this as I effectively told him to fuck off in a roundabout way when he called me earlier to see how I was/ the flat was. He left last saturday.
I'm young. It's ok. I'm looking forward to getting out of this house, getting my own space again, seeing friends in Brighton for a while. It will hurt but I will be ok.
A lot of people are shocked at him leaving me, as was I at first. But to be honest he's changed. He's gone from this young fun loving cool guy into a grumpy, critical bastard. I joined a weight loss group for him and lost nearly a stone- not good enough for him. I stopped smoking in the flat for him- not good enough. I work as many hours a week as my course (final year, quite important) allows me- not good enough. Other girls are better looking, more mature. Don't flirt (sorry I flirt, but since he told me I wasn't attractive anymore one needs a confidence boost now and then). Other girls apparently don't go to the pub with their male friends. Have more drive (sorry, I'm doing a fucking degree, is that not drive enough?) Know what they're doing with their lives (again, doing a degree in a time of terrible jobs. I worked my balls off doing shitty sales jobs which he knows I hated in order to scrape together rent for the last two summers. Sorry I'm broke. Really. But I'm a full time student who can only work 7 hours a week. We can't all have dads who get us swish jobs in media. The rest of us have to work towards what we want. cunt.)
I'm a bit bitter, yes, why do you ask?
Like I said. Looking forward to getting out of here. I'm stressed at the moment because I had my bi-annual breast exam the other day and have to go back in 2 weeks to check on a suspect lump. Probably nothing but unpleasant all the same.
On a more positive note, I like felt tips.
WOOOO.
I'm pretty bummed. I just don't understand how someone can decide they don't love someone so abruptly.
Looking back on the rare times I update this thing, I can see moving in together was a huge mistake.
I'm trying not to be too bummed out by this, despite my 2 year relationship failing spectacularly. I still love him dearly but am trying to distance myself from him so as not to hurt myself further. He seems annoyed by this as I effectively told him to fuck off in a roundabout way when he called me earlier to see how I was/ the flat was. He left last saturday.
I'm young. It's ok. I'm looking forward to getting out of this house, getting my own space again, seeing friends in Brighton for a while. It will hurt but I will be ok.
A lot of people are shocked at him leaving me, as was I at first. But to be honest he's changed. He's gone from this young fun loving cool guy into a grumpy, critical bastard. I joined a weight loss group for him and lost nearly a stone- not good enough for him. I stopped smoking in the flat for him- not good enough. I work as many hours a week as my course (final year, quite important) allows me- not good enough. Other girls are better looking, more mature. Don't flirt (sorry I flirt, but since he told me I wasn't attractive anymore one needs a confidence boost now and then). Other girls apparently don't go to the pub with their male friends. Have more drive (sorry, I'm doing a fucking degree, is that not drive enough?) Know what they're doing with their lives (again, doing a degree in a time of terrible jobs. I worked my balls off doing shitty sales jobs which he knows I hated in order to scrape together rent for the last two summers. Sorry I'm broke. Really. But I'm a full time student who can only work 7 hours a week. We can't all have dads who get us swish jobs in media. The rest of us have to work towards what we want. cunt.)
I'm a bit bitter, yes, why do you ask?
Like I said. Looking forward to getting out of here. I'm stressed at the moment because I had my bi-annual breast exam the other day and have to go back in 2 weeks to check on a suspect lump. Probably nothing but unpleasant all the same.
On a more positive note, I like felt tips.