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Family is an intriguing concept. Me and my friend Ian spent time this past weekend discussing family and how it has affected us because we are both only child's. Being an only child is a very unique experience. I can't even count how many times I wished I had a brother or sister to play with when I was younger and all my friends were busy. So much of my time growing up was spent alone and it has without a doubt followed me thru to my adult life. Another aspect of being an only child is I constantly search to be part of something larger, bigger that can love me unconditionally like a brother or sister would even though I am aware brothers/sisters still have internal strife there is still a bed rock of love in those relationships.
That is a huge reason why I searched out and became a member of three different fraternities. Delta Sigma Pi, Mu Omega Beta and the Freemasons. It allowed me to be part of a large group with storied history. I have only been a freemason for about 6 weeks so I can't attest to the fraternal bond I have with it. But with Delta Sigma Pi I have found something that I pour my heart into and no matter who I come across if they identify themselves as a Deltasig I immediately feel connected and willing to help them if they need it. It gives me great contentment in life to help others. I find a joy in it that I don't really find with doing anything else. Yet no matter how much I give into Deltasig and receive in return it isn't a replacement for real family.
Now I don't blame my parents for not having more kids I know there were medical issues that prevented that. It took 5 years of trying to have me. But I can't help but feel sad that I don't have siblings. I have thought a lot about children and parenting lately as a few of my close friends are getting married or planning to have kids. I ask myself would I make a good father? I want to be one, but I'm not a stereotypical guy. I'm not an athlete, or a rough and tumble man's man, or super into cars. When you look at the images of fathers that are out there its many of the stereotypes. Maybe I'm wrong just kind of how I view it.
Regardless I'm thinking about family and all that but i've done gone and put the cart in front of the horse. I am in no place to start a family right now. First and foremost I am single so I don't have that serious relationship that is necessary for a successful family. Secondly financially I am not ready to start a family. Within 5 years though it would be my supreme goal to be in a position to begin that journey.
At this point I'm just kind of rambling getting my thoughts out....and kind of don't want to keep going down this well. Thanks for sticking with me folks. Have a good night.
Peace
That is a huge reason why I searched out and became a member of three different fraternities. Delta Sigma Pi, Mu Omega Beta and the Freemasons. It allowed me to be part of a large group with storied history. I have only been a freemason for about 6 weeks so I can't attest to the fraternal bond I have with it. But with Delta Sigma Pi I have found something that I pour my heart into and no matter who I come across if they identify themselves as a Deltasig I immediately feel connected and willing to help them if they need it. It gives me great contentment in life to help others. I find a joy in it that I don't really find with doing anything else. Yet no matter how much I give into Deltasig and receive in return it isn't a replacement for real family.
Now I don't blame my parents for not having more kids I know there were medical issues that prevented that. It took 5 years of trying to have me. But I can't help but feel sad that I don't have siblings. I have thought a lot about children and parenting lately as a few of my close friends are getting married or planning to have kids. I ask myself would I make a good father? I want to be one, but I'm not a stereotypical guy. I'm not an athlete, or a rough and tumble man's man, or super into cars. When you look at the images of fathers that are out there its many of the stereotypes. Maybe I'm wrong just kind of how I view it.
Regardless I'm thinking about family and all that but i've done gone and put the cart in front of the horse. I am in no place to start a family right now. First and foremost I am single so I don't have that serious relationship that is necessary for a successful family. Secondly financially I am not ready to start a family. Within 5 years though it would be my supreme goal to be in a position to begin that journey.
At this point I'm just kind of rambling getting my thoughts out....and kind of don't want to keep going down this well. Thanks for sticking with me folks. Have a good night.
Peace