:-P

[bryn_or_lunatic]

I'm not sure how I feel.

My relationships with men are UTTERLY convoluted.

I want someone... even just a friend with benefits.

I can't figure me out.

I'm already looking for the ones totally unsuitable for me and thinking maybe, just maybe I can make it work.

I'm really not that old and I didn't think I was THAT unattractive...

Where is he and what is taking him so damned long?

I saw a guy who looked like Chris (my ex) tonight and I almost ran. I need WAY more booze in me than I had at the time not to cuss him out. I really have never spoken to anyone I have had sex with after whatever we had dissolved. Maybe that isn't healthy,

OMG I just realized that this long time crush really is done. I mean half of these blog entries have to be at least partially about him. I can listen to those songs that consistently remind me of him without out so much as a pang. At least something good came out of all this confusion.

It doesn't tell me why I feel this need to grab the next breathing male who shows the slightest interest in me and drag him back to my condo...

Oh well,

Bryn