trying to keep my nose above water
one day, i will keep a somewhat steady journal again. this is still not that day, but i keep telling myself that.
this semestre has been a lot harder on me than i expected and i seem to continually bash my head, or have my head bashed, into a wall. i keep running into more things that i've lost or have been weakend during my 'time off'. it's infuriating, but even with all that i think *hope* i'm making progress.
so,
-papers/projects still giving me hell, but i think i'm at least re-working out how to go about them. i was never all that good at them to begin with.
-keep going on and off crutches; had a brief scare thinking i was going back to surgery, but that's over so it's back to status quo on that
-schroeder finally gave in and died. (that's my mom's father) i sound cold and crass, i know, but this man has been the bain of our family since my mother was a small child, not a case for mourning. but i found that there is as much to deal with in bagage and paperwork of an estranged family as there is in sorrow for a loved one. there was a sence of peace-making and a lightening of something i hadn't realized was there.
then there was thanksgiving, which was good. i saw family that i havn't seen in a long time and it was good. and there was lots of granny-food. yum!
so now here i am in crunch week. two papers due on friday one of which is finally beginning to take shape, and the other i've barely even started on. i'm hoping for an extension. then exam week!
oddly enough i look forward to exam week. by then most everything else is done and i have a whole week to focus on three specific things. that i can handle.
this semestre has been a lot harder on me than i expected and i seem to continually bash my head, or have my head bashed, into a wall. i keep running into more things that i've lost or have been weakend during my 'time off'. it's infuriating, but even with all that i think *hope* i'm making progress.
so,
-papers/projects still giving me hell, but i think i'm at least re-working out how to go about them. i was never all that good at them to begin with.
-keep going on and off crutches; had a brief scare thinking i was going back to surgery, but that's over so it's back to status quo on that
-schroeder finally gave in and died. (that's my mom's father) i sound cold and crass, i know, but this man has been the bain of our family since my mother was a small child, not a case for mourning. but i found that there is as much to deal with in bagage and paperwork of an estranged family as there is in sorrow for a loved one. there was a sence of peace-making and a lightening of something i hadn't realized was there.
then there was thanksgiving, which was good. i saw family that i havn't seen in a long time and it was good. and there was lots of granny-food. yum!
so now here i am in crunch week. two papers due on friday one of which is finally beginning to take shape, and the other i've barely even started on. i'm hoping for an extension. then exam week!
oddly enough i look forward to exam week. by then most everything else is done and i have a whole week to focus on three specific things. that i can handle.