part one
So, the one time in a month that I really feel the need to write some things out, and lj shuts down. But quite a lot has happened in the past week and my head is just swimming. First of all, we have finished the ‘sex and the city’ series, which is very tragic. We’ve seen every season and all the extras we could, I think we’re now going through withdrawal. Of course, we had to drive all over town to find season six part two, it was out at all the rental places, so we ended up buying it at wallmart. And for everything I’ve heard for years and years of this show, apparently no one I know saw season six, cause I had no warning for what came there. Not only did they give one of the characters cancer, but Mikhail Baryshnikov was in it!!!! And not just once, he was carrie’s boyfriend for a while! Aah! Mom and I both went googley… So that was interesting, to say the least.
And then I’ve been having this issue with… well, it’s a running issue, which makes it all the more irritating… but, why the hell do people always want to put me in a box! It makes me nuts. It’s like people are drawn to me because of my "free spirit" or outspokenness or whatever the hell it is that I can’t come up with word for, and then almost instantly want to throw on labels and expectations and constraints. And then sometimes I think, what’s so bad about having people expect something of you? But it’s their expectations, not of what I truly may be or have to offer, but of what they want me to be, or their misunderstanding of me, or what they want to see ‘behind my personality’. I just want them to let me just…be. (ahh the proverbial ‘they’, I love blaming all on ‘them’) I also tend to act badly towards those sorts of walls, even self-destructively at times, and don’t want to start all that again…
And! my computer is so screwed! it's making me nuts! baahhh!
And then I’ve been having this issue with… well, it’s a running issue, which makes it all the more irritating… but, why the hell do people always want to put me in a box! It makes me nuts. It’s like people are drawn to me because of my "free spirit" or outspokenness or whatever the hell it is that I can’t come up with word for, and then almost instantly want to throw on labels and expectations and constraints. And then sometimes I think, what’s so bad about having people expect something of you? But it’s their expectations, not of what I truly may be or have to offer, but of what they want me to be, or their misunderstanding of me, or what they want to see ‘behind my personality’. I just want them to let me just…be. (ahh the proverbial ‘they’, I love blaming all on ‘them’) I also tend to act badly towards those sorts of walls, even self-destructively at times, and don’t want to start all that again…
And! my computer is so screwed! it's making me nuts! baahhh!