geraldz.
So another depressing update.
I miss so many things. I feel like i'm so far away from how i want to be and who i want to be & i don't know how to get there. [Even though i really don't know who that is yet.] Being an adult is so complicated. I feel all over the place with my social life and my friends. I do relate and enjoy my time with them but i always feel like i'm being pulled into their world and all the drama that comes with it. Yet i try to keep my own stuff to myself unless its something i need them for. Im sure my best friends know just about everything i've ever done, and i still feel like they only tell me the basics of how they really feel.
I feel at ease with my family. Thats one thing that seems to fit really well right now. Not that i've had a problem, but with Jim out of the picture everything is back to how it should have been years ago. Still feeling like i need to keep somewhat of a distance with my Grandparents. I just got my car money paid back to them last month & as much as i love them i still don't like the uncomfortableness we share now.
So much. Feeling like i need a break from everything, but there is not much i can do with no income and nowhere to go.
Anyway,
Adding more later.
I miss so many things. I feel like i'm so far away from how i want to be and who i want to be & i don't know how to get there. [Even though i really don't know who that is yet.] Being an adult is so complicated. I feel all over the place with my social life and my friends. I do relate and enjoy my time with them but i always feel like i'm being pulled into their world and all the drama that comes with it. Yet i try to keep my own stuff to myself unless its something i need them for. Im sure my best friends know just about everything i've ever done, and i still feel like they only tell me the basics of how they really feel.
I feel at ease with my family. Thats one thing that seems to fit really well right now. Not that i've had a problem, but with Jim out of the picture everything is back to how it should have been years ago. Still feeling like i need to keep somewhat of a distance with my Grandparents. I just got my car money paid back to them last month & as much as i love them i still don't like the uncomfortableness we share now.
So much. Feeling like i need a break from everything, but there is not much i can do with no income and nowhere to go.
Anyway,
Adding more later.