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Im taking a tour of the Art Institute of LA next Monday...Im looking forward to seeing what they have there. Ive always enjoyed making things...so i'm seeing where this road takes me. The list of reasons to stay keeps getting shorter and shorter. It's me time I guess...It's been almost a year and so much has happened good and bad. But lately life has become less and less adventurous...and just lonely. So it's up to me to change that, right...right.I never thought things would have gone this way but such is life. It feels like a chapter has ended. a new chapter begins. New characters and new plot lines seem deserving of a new setting. Still in search of that new setting. With all of this "newness" I can't figure out if everything else changed or if I did...I'm sure it's a little of both...I don't laugh as much...but I don't cry as much...I don't dance as much...but I don't sit as much...I miss the adventure...I've been missing a lot of things lately. I'm ready for new relationships but old habits die hard. I feel better about myself though...and maybe that's why i don't laugh as much. The goofiness I'm sure was some sort of insecurity covering...but...less insecure=less goofiness. Don't worry; I'm no therapist...makes sense though. Why was I always so goofy? I could have chosen to be confident; strong. Instead I chose to be goofy and "naive." I am Bryce Fisher. Keeping everyone at arms length with laughter has not done what I thought I was trying to do. I never wanted to be the joke. I feel that's what I was. As much as I don't enjoy feeling lonely...it is a new chapter where I am as confident and strong as I haven't been letting myself be.